Plans for the Weekend NOT!!!!!!

The past few days the only word I can think off is sucks!!! work!!! people!!! family!!! obligations!!! prejudices!! and idiots !!!.

Theres just somethings that are taking over my life, in a bad way. It's getting to me so much that I don't want to go out at all. just dont feel like going out because my life is getting taken over by stupid things. I spent the early parts of last evening with Alphie…and yet I could not pour out to him what was racing in my mine… And that's pretty stupid that I'm letting things get to me, but I guess that's like the only way I know...? We are human and it happens to the best of us.


A lot of people dont _feel_ like going out and having fun. They're just in a depressed state and just dont feel like going out. The funny thing is, even if you dont initially feel like it, if you force yourself to go out of the house and see other people, your mood might change and by the end of the night you are glad that you went. This is why it's important to do things regardless if you feel like it or not because as soon as you are in a different environment, your mood can change and be uplifted. Despite all that and you really dun feel like going out then don’t. Be frank and fair in your decision and hopefuly the other people try not to be mischeiveous or malicious in trying to accept or not to accept your decision.

For some odd reason, I just dont feel like going out this weekend. Past few days, when I am off from work all I wanna do is sleep, or just stay home and do absolutely nothing. When people ask me to hang out or invite me to parties I am just like sorry I cant, I mean I'd go out if it was something exciting, but otherwise i just stay the fuck home…lol Don’t discount me…its just how I feel right now. I am absorbing a lot of things without having an avenue to release them to. I am looking frwd to nothing but resting myself tomorrow amd maybe the day after!!!