Ending of a chapter - suicide

“Suicide is man's way of telling God, "You can't fire me - I quit."” Bill Maher quotes

If you scroll thru the internet you many kinds of death and most of the in those posted in main stream papers or the WWW are tragic or unexpected ones. We generally read it in passing unless it is someone we know or met in our journey thru life. Sometimes it becomes a coffee table or happy hours point of discussion

In all honestly, I struggle to comprehend death especially its timing, why some are in my opinion before their time and some you wish it was sooner. I dont believe in shift the blame or death to a high being that's taking the easy way out,. In a society that demands for clear definition and questioning WHY? in every possible subject, we tend to take the easy way on this subject.

While trying to wrap my head around that, I am faced with another conundrum - suicide. If death if hard enough to accept the manner in which an individual decided to end his or her life and the dramatic impact it leaves on friend and family if beyond words. It is a whole different ball game, Maybe I over think about it but i cant help my self.

JESSE VENTURA, former wrestler and Governorship of Minnesota in his book "I Ain't Got Time to Bleed" said 'I'm not disparaging suicides when I call them weak, I'm pointing out that anybody who would consider doing a thing like that needs help. I don't think a normal, mentally healthy person commits suicide.'

Sitting down Tuesday returning my quiz night I was approached by a fren that informed me someone I know had committed suicide. Did not matter young or old? I was shocked to hear it. There was a range of emotion as the news sunk in ..Shock, a loss for words and in the mind were question Why?

It easy to type out we have problems we should over come, we never will know what was on that person's mind to drive them to suicide, walk a mile in their shoe!!

What adds to that conundrum is despite all the family and friends and lovers they had they could not speak it out or share it our or confesses or work the issues out and death was the only option. the sad part is we did nto see it coming , there lies our failure as a fren or a family or as a lover

A life is lost and thats sad.

I love what I do - another first project of its kind

I love my sports, I am passionate about what I believe I can do and get people alone to help me out... bout two years ago I got elected to a position, ironically as many can attest I never went there to get elected. Why? You could say I am am the kind of guy that swims against the tide so that make me a trouble maker....I know the rules and I know the opportunities, so when I got elected I got to work.

Short term goals long terms goals I was determined that n my 2 years of being elected, till the term expired I will give 101% and set standard that people can look up to and emulate. I guess I am lucky to have a Deputy President that shares the same passion and vision of what we must to do dig ourselves out of the hole we are in. It was never easy... while some toiled some just warmed the seats.

But we set standard and continued to improve ourselves and the people around us to raise the level of the game in this state. We did a lot of things First, heck we are proud of it, we wear our colors with pride, granted there are some lame asses who want to steal the credit, who want to bring us down... go ahead... you know why? we are here for 2 years to do a job. If you want us back you know where to tick!!

ANOTHER FIRST - I am working hard right now on another project where the goal is to get 150 kids below the ages of 10 & 12 from schools in the Selangor and have a clinic to improve their skills while having fun at the same time learn about the Razak Cup and its 48 year legacy. I want to give the kids the opportunity to look at the trophy, touch it , take pics with it. I want to get National players and former Razak Cup greats to come, lets the kids see them, take pics with them, listen to them talk about their experiences.

It has not been done before and I dun plan to make it a one off event!!! Throw away you game-boy, Facebook, PS2 for one morning of playing the game you love and have fun with and meet the STARS. Whats wrong in that? I want the kids to be in awe when they meet the National Players, or when they look at the Razak Cup Trophy, when the former greats of Razak show up..

I am working hard, working my ass off to make this happen, coz I know in my heart and mind if this works the chain reaction it gonna rock.... the I will be in my corner patting my own back as I watch the kids enjoy


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