Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Rainy days

Well the flu bug and the ill health bug is around and it beginning to bite.... Swamped with work before I go away for the weekend makes even more difficult...In the office not in a more permanent capacity m like jack of all trades and master of none... Hardly time to see frens then again its like early to work to get the free parking spot and late from work doing multi tasking

personally...Feel out of wack...With my blog duties wilting down so much not reports from Goa to Bisik to icons.... need a break then again not like can afford to go for a holiday.... Sis leaving to India for a while and I should spend some time with her and sort the house matters...time to roll but I will be back hopefully before next week

Sunday, November 27, 2005

and he says "I am not interested in her..just want you to know that...."

I am a frequent chatter on IRC when i have a time, ther is a couple of room I go to regularly.... one of the newer channels which a small group make it up..there I was kicking back with some of the regular I know and met in person...therese are ppl who know me and I trust them like they trust me....I was taken aback when someone who I am on a "hi, hello, how u doing?, what news? general conversation.." basis pops up a question....

"I wanna ask you something.... are you and **_*** an item...." I went like W.T.F player!!!!... so i ask like "why la???"' "no I heard you both an item..." mind racing things groups together my response was (defensive of course , you dun know what kind of idiots will be asking you) "who told you that?". His response "I cant tell you that" (ISA probably, wtf if u wanna ask me something confirm who the source.)

"So I said NOPE and who ever spreading the rumours aint got jackass idea bout me or my life..." (here comes the jackpot)..his response" I just want to let you know I have nothing with her...and not interested in her...." (ka-ching)

I went like wtf player, someone been jacking his chain too often...this poor misguided soul thinks this woman belong to me...I wonder who the dong who told him that...The icing on the cake was when he said not interested in her. Wei if oyu not interested in her why you want to announce in the channel...aiyooo ppl ah never change

Well the regulars already know me and this person are good frens and a fact that has been clearly established... I dun like the fact dat ppl who dun know you go and spread rumours like that but then again idiots are everywhere.

So anyone wanna date me lol

Friday, November 25, 2005

Have we looked the other way too many times!!!

You and I have been turning a blind eye to the ongoing of a system deem acceptable to all. So long as it does not affect you dun change it. Today we read of woman being forced to do ear squats in the nude, it is written as foreigners and at the height of the case of whistle blowers being harassed and taken to court this news come to light. What if this was ur family, ur loved ones!!!

Putting aside reservations if it is doctored, fake etc etc etc can anyone form the man on top to the ground stand up and really say "No no thse kind of things do not take place in our jails!!!!"

Ask you self what even more scary...the fact the ear squat is being done in our jails or some asshole who can actually records on the phone and MMS it about. Who has access to mobile phones while in custody.

This aint anything new and right now, I don't know enough to suggest a solution for the problem either but it made me wake up, its too sad, hope its not too late


Everything secret degenerates, even the administration of justice; nothing is safe that does not show how it can bear discussion and publicity.

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

My blog fren - Melinda Tognini Published on: May 15, 2004 –

With her premission

Thanks giving.
This can only be a good thing. In my current situation, where I am about to give birth to a baby whom doctors have diagnosed with a complex heart defect, I have been struggling with this whole area. It would be very easy, and understandable, to feel completely overwhelmed with the negative possibilities, and spend the entire pregnancy feeling depressed, anxious and afraid--and I do regularly have to fight the fear that threatens to overcome me.

But, I also know that how I look at a situation does determine how well I cope. When I was 18, my boyfriend at the time had broken up with me and gone overseas. I was desperately sad for ages, but one day I started to think of all the positives in my life. In the form of a prayer (but you could just as easily do it as a list or a journal entry if God’s not your thing), I began to give thanks for those good things. I was amazed at how my outlook on things altered. I went from being someone who just wanted to get into bed and stay there indefinitely, to someone who felt as if things would work out. That didn’t mean I would necessarily get my boyfriend back (we did get back together temporarily, but it would have been better if we hadn’t!) but life would be okay. At the moment, while I have had some anxious and teary moments, for the most part I have found a lot to be thankful for, and experienced a lot of joy and peace.

Today, here are some of the things I am thankful for:
• The smell of rain and my pink roses
• I have money to put petrol in my car
• I can pay our bills
• I have friends and family who have been an enormous support to us as we come to terms with an unborn child with congenital heart defects
• In the most recent ultrasound (yesterday), there is some improvement, even though the journey is not over yet.
• During that ultrasound, the doctors were trialing a new 3D machine, so we have clear photos of our baby’s face.
• I know God, who offers hope that what the doctors have diagnosed does not have to be the end result (we are accepting the diagnosis but not the prognosis)
• I live in a country where there are no bombs
• My son tells me he loves me, and gives me lots of kisses, hugs and giggles
• I live in a country where I, and my children, can go to school and learn
• My dad has been given the all-clear from the bowel cancer that threatened his life the year before last

Thanks mel

Thanks Giving

When was the last time did you and you family and I mean all of them got together and gave thanks? When was the last time you joined all you frens and laughed that all ur frens were actually there?

While the concept of thanks giving is purely American and commercialized. the ideology is something we can apply on second thoughts we should apply…

Every day, we are bombarded with images and messages of how terrible the world around us is. The news tells us about war, terrorism, death and destruction. Very few news stories focus on the positive. Any a time I watch a TV3 program which focuses on the poor and those suffering and sometimes I cant eat. It does effect me.

Do we need to be reminded how much we have to be thankful for in the grand scheme of things? Do the tattered remains of flags on car antennas signal that we have forgotten how incredibly lucky we are to live in a country that offers freedom and unprecedented opportunity to its citizens?

Sometimes we all need a reminder, especially when we complain about things financial and material.
So for this Thanksgiving Day:

Let's stop complaining about stock losses and be thankful we still have the potential for gains.

Let's stop complaining about oppressive bosses, and be thankful we still have jobs.

Let's stop complaining about being overweight, and be thankful we have plenty to eat.

Let's stop complaining about traffic, and be thankful we still have gas for our record-setting number of new cars.

Let's stop complaining about over-spending, and be thankful we're not without money at all. (If this isn't enough to be thankful for, then share some of the "problem" by buying a gift for a child who has none.)

Let's stop complaining about e-mail spam, and be thankful we can communicate.

Let's stop complaining about lawyers, and be thankful we have nothing to sue for. (Or stop filing suits when we have nothing to sue for.)

Let's stop complaining about politicians, and be thankful we can vote our choices. (And then do it.)

Let's stop complaining about what teenagers wear and listen to, and be thankful we have grown older.

Let's stop complaining about rudeness, and be thankful we know the difference between good manners and bad. (Obviously, rude people don't know the difference.)

Let's stop complaining about the football referees' calls, and be thankful we can watch football instead of missile strikes on TV today.

Let's stop complaining about other people's opinions, and be thankful we can express ours.

Let's stop complaining about the weather, and be thankful we awakened in peace and freedom today, and that the weather will certainly change tomorrow.

And while we're counting our blessings, let's be especially grateful for all the young men and women who are defending our country and freedom around the world, so we can sit here and be thankful today.

On this day, of all days, we have so much more to be thankful for than to complain about.

And that's The Savage Truth.

What can you be thankful for, despite your current situation? They say that “in all things give thanks.” That doesn’t mean we have to be thankful FOR a situation, but it does mean we can find things to be thankful for, no matter what our circumstances are.

So, when we think about it, there is always someone worse off than us. I don’t know who wrote the following, but it shows how much we do have when we pause to think about it:
“If you have food in the refrigerator, clothes on your back, a roof overhead and a place to sleep…you are richer than 75% of this world.

If you have money in the bank, in your wallet and spare change in a dish someplace…you are among the 8% of the world’s wealthy.

If you woke this morning with more health than illness…you are more blessed than the million who will not survive the week.

If you have never experienced the danger of battle, the loneliness of imprisonment, the agony of torture, or the pangs of starvation…you are ahead of 500 million people in the world.”

Try writing your own "thankfulness" list. It might be difficult to begin with, so give yourself time and space to think about it.

If you are finding it hard to see something positive, start small. It might simply be the smell of a particular flower, the warmth of the sun after days of rain, your dog’s happy bark. Just starting the process of being thankful can snowball. And, you might be surprised at how your attitude towards and feelings about life can be positively affected

Despite all this it still cant change your perception… go and jump off a river!!!

the evil that lies within us

Yes I believe that the statement "Evil is Inherent in the Hearts ofMen" is true. Everybody has evil in them although a restriction would have to be put on the statement to say that evil is inherent in men but it is the power to overcome the evil.

But it’s not faces in clouds that haunt me the most. It’s more discernible, human faces that tend to trouble my sleeping and waking hours. The most threatening “faces of evil” are a lot closer to home than up in the heavens (or down in hell) somewhere. They are, rather, the faces of people who have done (and still do) unspeakably horrible things to other human beings (not to mention horrible things to the Earth itself).

Evil comes in many forms and many ways....if we all bring evil out for different reasons and the most difficult dangerous evil of all is the evil one does in desperation.

One can only be pushed so much till you back is against the wall the they fight back...sometimes for the right or wrong the final is still evil...but justifyable

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Enough of low edd blog...lets read something to smile - jokes

This guy was on the side of the road hitch-hiking on a very dark and stormy night.
The storm was so strong, he could barely see a few feet ahead of him. Suddenly, he saw a car coming towards him. The guy got in the car, closed the door, and only then realized that there was nobody behind the wheel!
The car starts going again, very slowly. The guy looks at the road and sees a curve coming his way.

Scared, he starts to pray and begs for his life. Just before the car hits the curve, a hand appears through the window and turns the wheel. The guy, paralysed in terror, watched how the hand appeared each time the car approached a curve.

Gathering his strength, he gets out of the car and runs all the way to the nearest town. Wet and in shock, he goes into a pub, asks for two shots of tequila and starts telling everybody about the horrible experience he just went through. A silence enveloped everyone when they realized the guy was crying hysterically and wasn't drunk. About a half hour later, two other guys walk into the same pub and one said to the other, 'Mira, Pedro. That's the idiot that got in the car while we were pushing it!'

Career Guidance

A man flying in a hot air balloon realized he was lost. Reducing altitude, he spotted a man on the ground and descended to shouting range.
"Excuse me," he shouted. "Can you help me? I promised my friend I would meet him a half hour ago, but I don't know where I am."
The man below responded: "Yes. You are in a hot air balloon, hovering approximately 30 feet above this field. You are between 40 and 42 degrees North Latitude, and between 58 and 60 degrees West Longitude."
"You must be an engineer," responded the balloonist.
"I am," the man replied. "How did you know?"
"Well," said the balloonist, "everything you have told me is technically correct, but I have no idea what to make of your information, and the fact is I am still lost."
Whereupon the man on the ground responded, "You must be a manager."
"That I am" replied the balloonist, "but how did you know?"
"Well," said the man, "you don't know where you are, or where you're going. You have made a promise which you have no idea how to keep, and you expect me to solve your problem. The fact is you are in the exact same position you were before we met, but now it is somehow my fault."

The Sixth Affair
Jake was dying. His wife, Becky, was maintaining a candlelight vigil by his side. She held his fragile hand, tears running down her face.Her praying roused him from his slumber He looked up and his pale lips began to move slightly. "Becky my darling," he whispered. "Hush my love," she said. "Rest, don't talk." He was insistent. "Becky," he said in his tired voice, "I have something that I must confess." "There's nothing to confess," replied the weeping Becky, "everything's all right, go to sleep.""No, no I must die in peace, Becky. I. I slept with your sister, your best friend, her best friend and your mother!" "I know,my sweet one" whispered Becky, "let the poison work".

The Fifth Affair
A man walks into a night club one night. He goes up to the bar and asks for a beer. "Certainly, Sir, that'll be 1 cent." "One Cent?", exclaimed the man. So the man glances over at the menu and asks, "Could I have a nice juicy T-bone steak, with chips, peas and a fried egg?""Certainly Sir," replies the barman, "but that comes to real money." "How much money?" inquires the man. "4 cents," the bartender replied. "Four Cents?", exclaimed the man. "Where's the guy who owns this place?"The bartender replied, "Upstairs, with my wife."The man says, "What's he doing upstairs with your wife?" The bartender replied, "The same thing as I'm doing to his business."

recovery (flu aje)

Well some well prepared home cook by ah moi's mom who is down for a wedding was a good trick to start clearing my blocked nose and sinus…. That plus popping clarines and polaramine (something like that) was a good knockout punch…

Today the flu has somewhat cleared up…. Thanks 3 events ah moi mom making abc soup (dat lady is one mean cook) which started unblocking my nose sat binge with liquor and 3 tablet of PCM…and last night dosage.....

Well the gang is down and they trickle in from last week Tuesday/Wednesday for a wedding over a weekend… is was great to see J (ah moi bro) again…nice chap damm kewl….We ended up talking for a while. I could not see them much as I was with Jollylads and the dinner at Villa that night. The house was rearranged and reorganized to accommodate everyone. It was more comfortable then I expected it to be. J was the 1st to leave on Sunday then D lead the 2nd batch currently the boys and 2 adults…nice to have people in the house…

Well last night met an angle and for a while it was convenient to drop headache and emotions and issue aside and enjoy a good diner…dun know if wearing a mask or just pushing all that was helps. Edward was a gentleman as he accompanied us with the 2 of them.. a nice selection of dishes and finishing the bottle of wiski really really helped with my flu lol and relieving my headache for a while, not like it was a double date …just 4 ppl sitting down each with their own headache setting it aside for a few hours

Then snap back to reality…

Help my card swallowed

Maybank has a unique policy on ATM cards being swallowed…you go to go back all the way to you home back and pick it up… as in my case it would be lovely port klang hahaha so till the weekend…m stuck…got to take money form loan shark dory and devil lol

Help anyone offer lesser interest rates

An Internet Fren

Even in my wildest dreams I would have never imagined the 'information highway' would ever be a source of meeting interesting people. As with most of us, my quest began with simple curiosity. I never expected to make friends from all over the globe. Friends, who may only be online, but still a very real and important part of my life....I emphasize my life... My experiences have been varied, some good and some not so good and some very the bad. But in each case, a door was opened where I received a chance to explore another person. As human beings, we feel the need to connect, need to reach out to people who understand us and want to listen to what we have to say. The virtual friends in the cyber world provide us means and opportunities of fulfilling the need to express our thoughts and opinions in a way that real world may not offer. Besides providing the opportunity for self-statement, my online relationships have taught me many things that have helped me improve my personal life and relationships.

1. I became a better listener (and a bad typist)
Since typing on a screen is very different from real life conversations, when communicating on the net, one becomes better tuned as to what the other person is saying. In the real world, although we may think that we listen much closer, but we do more with our eyes, than with our ears. For me, communicating with my virtual friends in cyber world has helped me to become a better listener in my personal life. I realized that, in the real world, I would hear people, but not really listen to them. After learning so much about a person in such a short time over the Internet, I realized that the one on one attention was the key factor in getting to know another person. Also, it was the key to really listen to them.

This knowledge when transferred to my relationships in real life has made me a better listener. I focus a lot more on what others are saying and that helps me to understand what they really mean.
2. I learnt to accept and respect people who held beliefs and views different from mine.
I learn each culure and it own sets of morals and values some that I can relate to..One of my closest on line friend has views on God, religion and morality that are very different from mine. From this friendship, I have learned that even if two people believe differently, they can still be friends and enjoy each other's company. But it takes work to get there. I
Something that does not come easily for most people, including me. This friendship helped me realize what others believe or what they think about you does not define that who you are. More importantly, who you are is defined by what you believe about yourself. If not, then you become a slave to other people's way of life and not free to be who you were created to be.

3. I discovered parts of myself that I never knew existed within me.
My mind's window is opened to new ideas, thoughts and creativity. Causing things to flow from me that I was not aware existed. These friends have helped in discovering what was lying dormant within me. (not just sex that was dormant lol)

I see friendship on the Internet a delightful yet fearful journey into one's being. It is nevertheless a journey well worth taking. I have only spoken of my good experiences. However, not all experiences will be good and as you would like them to be. You can avoid and minimize bad experiences by taking some precautions. Oh boy have I got some bad ones

just remember one very important rule ...."If they sound too good to be true, then most likely they are." Keep in mind that we are all human and we all have good qualities and bad qualities. There are no perfect people. (neither am I)

As long as you are realistic and cautious, you can make good, lasting friendships. If you are looking for the good, you will find it. Without the Internet, I would not have had the opportunity to meet some wonderful people and be able to learn valuable things from their unique qualities and enhance my life in so many different ways.

For me Internet friendship has been a means of personal growth, one that continues daily, and I wouldn't trade it, not even in exchange for anything


The breakup of an important love relationship or best buddy/fren is the most traumatic of human experiences and we have all suffered through at least one I am sure.Tell me who hasnt... In many ways we can more easily cope with the death of a loved one. Although we don't understand death, at least we understand its finality.

With the breakup of a relationship, days and weeks of lingering and haunting "ifs" often follow. The pain can penetrate every fiber of our being. In the days following the breakup we think of little else than the one we loved and trusted, the one we had so much invested in. Everywhere we go we are reminded of them--a face in a crowd, the flash of a familiar shirt, a distant voice, a song. In an effort to get away from things we may take a trip, only to find that in some way it reminds us of a special place we visited with our loved one. We struggle daily to force them from our thoughts only to find we are spending all of our time doing so.

There are thousands of "ifs," "possibly's" and "maybes." If you did something in a weak moment to cause the breakup, you may then be left with the extra pain and burden of remorse and guilt piled on top of the pain of separation. And then there are your well-meaning friends with their misguided efforts at trying to cheer you up by saying you are better off without them. (no offence)

While I was struggling with the pains of separation I envy those "swinging singles" who seem to have an "easy come, easy go" attitude about relationships. It came as some consolation to know that I am fortunate in having the ability to feel both the love (and pain) of separation. (you also wish at somepoint you can be like them)hehe

Even so, the pain of separation hurts, and it hurts very badly. (hu-ha) Witness the endless parade of heartbreak songs that have been published, review the writings of poets and novelists over the centuries or look at the popularity of psychic advice lines. Your experience has been shared by millions who have preceded you, and your hurt will be experienced by millions more who will follow. (as they say life goes on laaaaaa)

Some in anger say, "I will never allow it to happen again." That's just another way of saying, "I will never love again." It will happen trust me...Shutting yourself off from the possibility of love over a long period of time stagnates your life, and it may even eventually send you into a slow, spiraling descent of general withdrawal and despair. I took long walks; just wandered around aimlessly got sloshed, lost my head, behaved like a jerk... I started doing my work like some sort of robot.... I figured if I could just survive a couple weeks, maybe until the end of the next century, the hurt would start to go away. It got to be my goal just to get through each day.Although each of our experiences is different, each shares the common element of self-doubt, pain, disappointment and despair.

Are there ways to speed the healing; ease the pain? There is no one best way to cope with the breakup of a relationship. Each of us is different. Some people find that it helps to lose themselves in the company of friends. Some don't want to be around people. Some people find it helps to get away to an entirely different set of conditions. Some immediately try to look for a new love interest. Most who try this find that until they get over a previous love, a successful new relationship is impossible. (and they call it closure)

One thing I have learned is that, distractions can help you deal with your feelings in tolerable stages. A distraction may be the company of friends, a long trip (if you have that luxury), or the launching of major and maybe physically-demanding, spare-time project (if you can force yourself into one).

Monday, November 21, 2005

What guy came up with the masks idea?

I mean really, who did? That person was a genius.

How well do you actually know someone? Sure, theres surface issues, and anyone can discuss those. Heck,you can discuss those with a complete stranger! But how many people do you really "know"?And of those, how many are you 100% sure you know?

I saw my self that put on a "mask". What is sad is that I know I did. I could tell when I was faking it and when I was not. In short, my question is, does anyone really know anyone? Or are we all trapped inside figurative "glass boxes" or something? Thats my deep thought of the day, someone wants me to nmask...

hahaha you got to be kidding...if I want to pour my heart out and spill everything out...i go to a church...get the fuck out of my head....i am not that stupid to spill beans..

my choices changes ..sometimes dramatically when you see things happen b4 ur eyes...sometimes by what you read....sometimes by being blind...the one that knocks you off your feet it the one you dun see coming...

so this is my....vadai..... coming out gun blazing... bring it on

Sunday, November 20, 2005

I feel lousy

After last night, it feels as if I’ve momentarily wiped all the economic and sociological perspectives from my mind for a while. I know that for me and for a lot of other folks, this is pretty common practice; one gets so wrapped up in a perspective that putting it on the back-brain to bubble…it hurts as you reflect….and boy it hurts

I am the kind of person that gives 101%

With having my sinus back it hit me hard during dinner after the whole days event and the rain and all…with all I am going thru and weight I am carrying…..I am surprised I am not having a heart attack lol….I met so many people since my exit from hockey last night…and with all that I been going thru this was just another weight.

I sat alone on my table…as I was part of the organizing committee and other frens and well wishes were at pre designated tables. I was never able to address or speak to anyone bout my leave from hockey… did not have someone to talk to…I thought I did but it seem they were not about listening but commenting ..I wanted a ear or a shoulder …I got none…I am not bitching..just expressing… it difficult to find closure with the rage I have within.. Juz wear a mask and move on…push it far far back…

I was overwhelmed when they walked up to me and gave huggs and shook my hands patted my back…people who I look up to, respected…called brother all walk by offering encouragement.. the straw that broke the camel’s back… when a brother came up to me and hugged me from behind…..I had not see him for along time…he is not famous TV3 reporter… it was great to see him…. He pulled me aside and gave me all sorts of encouragement…what did I do…wear a mask and smile.. Thanks Karam and I love you bro.

Well now I feel lousy too, because it’s like, I know everybody else has problems right? Like, there are ppl in Africa with no food and AIDS. There are ppl in Iraq getting bombed in the streets. And I don’t have to worry about it. But, to me, all this seems like a big deal. I guess nobody’s life is perfect. But today, man. It sucked. Majorly topping off the bad weekend I have had in a long time. Thus this positing…seem to be my current channel of expression…Which is probably better for….....damm I need to sleep


Here we of the few times we get an inspiration at 3am in the morning..
One of the finest guides to living a good and happy life, the Greek philosopher Arisotle, taught that one should not necessarily count a life happy until it has ended, for the end of life can be one of terrible suffering and misfortune, as the ancient Greek tragedies often portrayed. The choices we make in life direct us towards or away from happiness and enable us to take advantage of good fortune or endure misfortune.

I dun often talk about the choices we make in life, well I am going to talk about it one time (hopefully) and I don’t promise it will be my last one either. How often have you regretted a choice that you’ve made because it’s turned out badly and you or someone else has suffered considerably as a consequence of a choice that you’ve made? How often have you seen friends or family members or other loved ones–or even total strangers, for that matter–make choices that you knew were going to be harmful to that person and to others, but they’ve gone ahead and made the choice, against all advice?

It happens quite often, don’t it?

Once a choice is made, any other possible choices are moot. They can’t be made any longer, for the situation never will be the same. A similar selection of choices may present itself in a similar situation, but any choice we make causes change and turns the way things are into the way things were. Many people, though, spend a great deal of time and energy in regret, wishing that they had made a different choice somewhere along the line, wishing that they hadn’t chosen the course of action that they chose.

They don’t realize, though, that the only way to deal with any choices that we’ve made is acceptance or non-acceptance. The choice has been made, now deal with the consequences–don’t regret the choice. Of course, if our choice was ill-advised or if it caused pain or anguish to yourself or others, we shouldn’t just shrug our shoulders and say “ok la.” We need to learn from it, and we need to direct our energy towards dealing effectively with the consequences, and not direct our energy towards feeling bad or feeling sorry for ourselves.

Then again , we also can’t let one or two–or even ten or twenty–bad choices keep us from making choices in the future. Accept the fact that some choices have turned out badly, but learn from those choices and move on. The person who won’t enter into another relationship because of the person or persons who treated them badly before doesn’t realize that he or she made a choice to be with that other person, and that instead of sabotaging their future happiness, they should learn from the error and focus on choosing to be with people who will treat them better.

Sounds like a no win no loss situation

Accept that you will make mistakes, and make sure you’re ready to deal with any consequences of your choices or actions. We all face choices ...In recent times I have had to make some choiced decision some favourable some not so favourable but the balance of the book its got to be done...I cried enough about it, I havew raged enough about it, I have tried to ignore it, I tried to change it but alas it seem I cant. Now I have been told there is no turning back... reality is what reality is therefore I have to walk on. I am a KOP!!! These choices will effect and has effected my frens but it seem they understood it more then I thought they will (well some of them) ....we will just have to watch. I am prepared to move forward and accept reality. Yee Haw..time for the mask

Friday, November 18, 2005

I got a bone to pick

When I got back from BISIK they night I went online chatting talking bout where I was, when a fellow chatter, PM me and ask why I did not invite her…. I gave my reason then I get hit with….you dun care and ur not a fren line to add insult to injury…all you care and kindness and friendship is a fake…I went like WTF

Cards on the table

As young as this person is to me she shows further immaturity but speaking without thinking. Always when we and even I invite her to join she would lament the does not fit in and feel left out but time and time and time again we would invite her. She wont come. She continues to lament this and that. I condone it learn one step at a time.

So, as time passes on by our acting of extending invitations to her reduced, in general when you invite someone to join you , it is because you are welcoming that person into your groups of frens..for instance I can take my irc group and join them with my hockey gourp…they are different sets of people with different orientation and even in my IRC groups there are different kind of people. DO they understand NOPE..they never try…like horse with blinders. Ask you self how many times would you invite someone to come when they keep declining. GET REAL.

Back to the story lol… What made me lose my patience was saying my

So I turned around and asked how many times have you gone out and invited me to join you. How many time have you invited me? Play the same questions back. The answer I got…”oh I lost your number so I could not invite you.” GET REAL

HELLO Earth to you-know-who…… we chat regularly on the channel and you cant for one second remember to ask for a number or hey we are all going out would you like to join us… admit it la people like us are not in your class but you know how I see it… we are real… you just plastic. Pure plastic…you got no idea bout what it means to be a fren so go and carry you high and might ass and find people who will worship and kiss you feet…one day you will wake up and realize how vain you are.

Look at your self in the mirror before you ask someone why you are not invited…dun make me puke with you silly and lame excuses

You see you got to reciprocate if not you are not worth anything…dun hand on the ledge saying rah-rah and then be thick skin.

The trigger point was all my care and kindness is fake….hahaha…to that chatter TALK TO THE HAND the rest you know me

Mid week

Wow so so so many thing to write and I have backlog of thing to do for the blog.

There is just not enough time to sit down and write then again there is not enough time to stand up and write as well

As usually when you busy there is never enough time and the week zipped by so quickly…the only time I think I could record an even was probably Wed.

Well those of you that know me, will also know I have in my own way been promoting a place called BISIK and a guy I know is the Manager the and goes by the name of Edward. I usually dun brag about the place but I been encouraging people to go and see for them selves what a nice place it is.Its not your dancing grinding clubbing or posh name dropping ONS kind of a joint but it got lots of space to do your thing and $$$ value for duit. Back to the blog

Well WED was the finals of Miss Bisik contest, and dang damm it!!! I had a meeting for a tournament that was taking place over the weekend. Cursing myself not being able to ogle lol at 16 ladies in the final I continue to promote… Lazarus has his bday so could not make it….

So told my fren to fix the table and I would have guest arriving…and I will be away for a meeting. By about 4pm there were bout 6 confirmed chatter and non chatters…then at 6pm DSP gave me a call to inform me the meeting had changed from 9pm to 7pm. I though maybe got chance for me to come back in time. I did not tell my frens that I be back as I did not want to commit. The meeting was a urgent want and I was prepared to give BISIK a miss.

We went the the motion of running the even and I was going to be in charge of the secretariat. We wrapped things up by about 8.15pm the a little dilly dangling and post meeting discussion ..there I was free. Talk about luck… so climb on and headed towards BISIK…did not mention to my frens I was coming when I got there the pageant I was delighted to see them….some how I have not met in a long long time.

Oh yeah Ros lovely to see you again…where my huggggsss and my thanks you!!!

The trails and tribulation of the night in judging who was the winner was all in good humor…there was a surprise winner not what the crowd was rooting for but it was fun.

Edward, well done man.
Pics coming up soon

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

'He who makes himself a beast...gets rid of the pain of being a man'
Hunter S. Thompson

'Focus on your weaknesses. They are the truest thing about you.'
Jean Cocteau

Its amazing finding the right quote at the right time for the right moment.

I love the 1st

Tuesday, November 15, 2005


This one takes the cake

TV Smith's Dua Sen. The politically incorrect irregular columnist combines his idiosyncratic observations and tangential commentary into a blog... go check out their website


In the recent 2005 Durex Global Sex Survey, Malaysians overwhelmingly picked the toilet as the preferred place for shagging outside a bedroom. In view of this prevalent practice, Dua Sen presents the definitive guide to toilet bonking...
Recommended:• Unisex toilets: Beach Club, Passion, Loft, Thai Club, Liquid KL •
Spacious toilets: Imbi Food Court, KL, Press Club of KL.•
Lonely toilets: Shell Station, Batu 13 Ulu Langat. •
Artistic toilets: Pudu Complex (excellent erotic graffiti on doors).
Not recommended:• Rajooz Curry House PJ - Stack of dirty dishes inside.• The Mall KL - The doors are about 3 or 4 feet high.• Boutique Toilet KLCC - Will people who won't pay for a room pay RM 4 for a toilet?• LRT Stations - Gadget mounted to prevent squatting over bowl hinders smooth sex.• Zouk KL - Bouncers get upset. • Toilets for the handicapped - Peter Tan gets really upset.

Precautions: • Due to the foul smell in most of our public toilets, it is advisable to SKIP foreplay.• Bring along an aerosol can of air freshener and flush BEFORE sex. • KEEP handbag safely around neck as snatch thieves strike from adjacent cubicles. • Most of the cheap porcelain break easily, so go EASY on the acrobatics.• Some toilets/cubicles come with built-in urinals. They usually stink. DO NOT push your partner's head in that direction.

Positions: While most (understandably) prefer an oral quickie, many copulating positions are possible depending on your dexterity and state of desperation...

Can you see pain?

Watching Chicago Hope at NTV7 yesterday brought back memories for me

The show takes place at Chicago Hope hospital in Chicago, Illinois, and focuses on the lives of several doctors working there, their trials and tribulation along the same lines why I love Boston Public.

Jeffrey Geiger, played exquisitely by Mandy Patinkin, was the heart and soul of the show. He added depth and realism to a melo-drama. This show added something deeper than excitement it added warmth to the over worked doctors. Allowing us to sympathize with the hardship they go through everyday, not just in their work lives, but with their personal ones as well.

It explores the intricacies of the human spirit behind the face, what’s in here and we then see how ordinary they all are just like you and me.

This show is interesting, because I've learned so many different kinds of hospital terms that I probably wouldn't otherwise know. This show combines the drama of saving lives with some essential humor

Yesterday Episode dealt with Tourette's Syndrome - A doctor with Tourette's Syndrome is brought to Chicago Hope to operate on an infant with a severe heart defect.

Tourette Syndrome (TS) is a neurological disorder characterized by tics -- involuntary, rapid, sudden movements or vocalizations that occur repeatedly in the same way.

That’s was the devil for this doctor but when he is in the OT the TS is disappear and the knife is steady...Alan said it best the human brain is so complex and the part of the brain which produces creative genius also produced the biggest nightmares. Throughout history the most genius people were the most eccentric the most misunderstood , with that gift come a pain, a pain only the eyes can see

Can you see?

Monday, November 14, 2005

Star-NiE winners head for Melbourne

See if you can find vadai's sis in there....

Star NIE = Newspaper in Education she is the advisor tt he school team that won the 1st place in the country wide contest that drew a total of 56,000 students from 260 schools took part in the contest, sending in 7,500 entries. As a reward the students and her won an alll expence paid trip to Melbourn and they left Sat. Proud of her.
Here is today's The Star extract
SEPANG: No words could capture the exhilaration of the winners of Star-NiE (Newspaper in Education) Best School Newspaper Awards 2005 contest as they boarded their flight for Melbourne, Australia.
The team of six girls and four boys from SMJK Kwang Hua, Klang, will spend a week in Melbourne visiting its city attractions and go on a guided tour of Melbourne University.

“We are very excited to visit a foreign country and experience a different culture. For many of us, this is a chance of a lifetime,” said team leader Pearly Neo, 16, at the KL International Airport on Saturday.
Her teammate Yeoh Kean Seng, 15, is looking forward to making new friends in Australia.

ALL SET TO GO: Winners of Star-NiE’s Best School Newspaper Awards 2005 contest gathering at the KL International Airport before leaving for Melbourne on Saturday. The school was crowned the contest champion for its entry, CSI (Curious Sensitive Eye), beating Maktab Sultan Abu Bakar, Johor Baru, and SK Methodist (P) Penang.

Teacher P. Ruthirayene, who accompanied the students, was as excited as her students. “Everyone is so animated, buzzing around with excitement. I’m just thinking of how much fun we are going to have. The trip is an eye-opener for the students, “ said Ruthirayene.

The students are looking forward to seeing the animals of Australia, especially the penguins on Philip Island. Pizza Hut is Star-NiE’s partner in the project while the grand prize sponsors included the Malaysia Airlines and Melbourne University. Genting City of Entertainment sponsored the prizes for the runner-up.

The ingredients of a weekend and the prespective it gives

The plan going into the weekend was ... A cousin getting married in Taiping, another cousin’s baby prayer, 2 weddings and the only thing missing was a funeral, but there was a movie. Thank you dory I manage to catch movie watch the movie The Exorcism of Emily Rose (2005) I have head a lot about this movie and read about it and the actually girl (Anneliese Michel's Exorcism) tale.

Faith and religion has never been my strongest points but then again neither has science. The movie was very thrilling as it put into perspective the need to believe in something, something that you can hold on to weather it is science, religion, teachings anything.

It basically boils down to based upon a true story, the events that lead up to the death of Emily Rose. Emily Rose was a young college student, who believed she was possessed. Her family and her pastor did everything they could to save her. This was not your typical horror flick. Though there are some scary scenes throughout, this story is more about Emily Rose and her story. I think that the perspective of this film is to a have more a social impact, not so much to be a horror film.

You don't need to know much about Emily, science, exorcism, or the Bible to be able to follow this movie; but, if you do, it'll definitely make you raise questions about your own faith, beliefs, and what you've learned throughout life about yourself.

It conveys a lot of messages and stresses how important it is to have integrity how sometimes you have to sacrifice your ambitions ,to do what your heart tells you. How some life experiences change us, our personality, and give us a true, deeper wisdom and understanding of life. How they can make us revise some views that previously we thought were unshakeable.Finally, the film provides an explanation why sometimes God allows some horrible things to take place and some people to become martyrs.

This will be an interesting debate

Next weekend gonna be hectic aside for helping a friend with a tournament , got a wedding dinner, got a birthday party and guest coming over for a wedding….helppppppppp

Saturday, November 12, 2005

The week that was - where the @%^& it went

Wow what a week it has been I been so busy driving the office with skeleton staff and surviving the wedding season (dats for the next blog).

The raya break is still carrying on forward with many taking extended leave that the actual full work force will gear in on Monday…so trying to run tenders, RFQ, PO and all the business acronyms is taking it toll.

With the need to push up sales before the year end break, it did not provide a big enough window and needing to get the office wed page running was another hurdle. Can you believe they charge 4-6k running n bringing up a website.

I had to give up attending Bisik coz the work load was too high, with outstation trips coming I need to have the strength and the thickness of the wallet to survive. Lo behold its already Sat.

Was up till 3 am and finally having the space and time of sending the pics of goa to the other conference people and my reports on Goa wow its been 3 week overdue. There goes the weekend with one wedding in Taiping, 3 in KL and 1 in Seremban this is gonna be a tough one to wriggle out.

The planned dinner for Fri with Rat, Xie, Lacy, Devil and Ant on Lacy’s suggestion fizzled out with one hurdle after another….seem to be jinxed the idea of us getting together…. I can remember when all the 6 of were actually together, there seem to be something at one time or another…. Stopping from actually meeting

Let see what happens

Friday, November 11, 2005

Ways to annoy telemarketers - take it with a pinch of salt

Have you not been on the receiving end of people who you dont knwo calling you up with you credit details ...list and more list sucked out of insurance agencies and telecommunication companies. Well I have had my fair share of it and here are some way to blow them off politely/rudely (read it with humour)

1. If they have a survey, answer "56" to every question. EVERY question.
2. If they ask for a certain person say "THEY MOVED TO NEPTUNE!"
3. If they want a money donation say "Yes, I'd LOVE to give you a hundred gazzillion dollars... but I don't have any money!"
4. Pretend to be "a little slow" (answer "huh?" or "I don't get it" to everything).
5. If all else fails, simply say "I DON'T LIKE YOU" and hang up. I know this sucks but you read it so you suck too.
6. Ask "Why" after every question.
7. Try to sell something back to them.
8. Tell them you have a gun to your head and are going to pull the trigger if they hang up, and ask for their name and company.(Make sure you talk in a soft and disturbed voice)Tell them that they have to talk you out of it.
9. Get on ur computer (if you have windows XP) and go to sounds. Then go to voice. Then a thing that reads, "i am microsoft sam your computer animated voice" (or something like that)and type in anything you want and press listen. It will talk back in a wierd voice. Place the phone with the telemarketer up to the speaker and type away.
10. Just act like you are in the middle of sex and ask them to continue becaue you arent busy and keep them on the phone as long as possible making the wierdest noises you can and any thing else that is funny.

Things that make u go hmmm

I always beeen intrigues by this kind of know when there are things in the world to make you pause and think... Enjoy reading and tell me what you think

A few things to make you go hmmmmm.....

Why when you say things can't get any worse, they do?

IF a store is open 24/7, why are there locks on the door?

Why do computer's start menu's start workin just as your shutting it down?

Why aren't the computer's letters on the keyboard NOT in ABC order?

If God made the world, and everything in it, who made God?What if today was yesterday, Tomorrow?

Why do men have nipples?

When cats fall, do they land on all 4's or do they land 1 foot at a time?

Why are men so attracted to porn?

Is it true that most women hate GIRLS? (other women)

Why is almost every song about LOVE?

Why does the sun darken our skin but lighten our hair?

Why is the man who invests all your money called a broker? Can fat people go SKINNYdipping?

Why do you need a drivers license to buy liquor when its illegal to drink and drive?

You know the little indestructible black box on planes? Why cant they make the whole plane out of that?
Why doesnt glue stick to the inside of the bottle?

Why is lemon juice made with artificial flavor, and dishwashing liquid is made with real lemons?

Why dont you ever see the headline "Psychic Wins Lottery?"

Why is it that doctors call what they do "practice?"

Why is "abbreviated" such a long word?

Why is it considered necessary to nail down the lid of a coffin?

Have mercy, but how do you feel? -an extract form jeffooi website which i had posted on my blog

Tuesday, November 08, 2005
I wish to know how you'd react reading this little story, via NZ Herald:

The family of a 12-year-old Palestinian boy, killed by Israeli soldiers, this weekend donated his kidney to an Israeli boy who desperately needed a transplant. "It doesn't matter," they said, "whether the recipient was a Jew or an Arab." Ahmed Khatib was shot in the head and pelvis on Thursday during a firefight in the West Bank city of Jenin.

He was rushed to the emergency room at Rambam hospital in Haifa, but died without recovering consciousness. The army expressed regret and ordered an investigation, but claimed the boy was toting a toy gun which soldiers mistook for a rifle. The family said he was with a group of boys waving toy guns to celebrate the Id el-Fitr festival.

Jamil Khatib, his uncle, said the boy's father, Ismail Khatib, agreed to donate the organ after he saw the young Israeli kidney patient suffering in the hospital. "He felt he had to go beyond politics," the uncle explained.

Tell me, what's your feeling?

Posted by jeffooi at November 8, 2005 01:51 PM

all lost

This is so bloody frustrating all me ranting and raving and through and opinions over issues and its all gone. GONE!!!!

damm i got to climb back on the saddle.

Thursday, November 10, 2005

what the heck happened

all my blogs over the past few days all gone missing

was it sabotage or a glitch

Saturday, November 05, 2005

Wat a sat night

Now you know what they say bout blondes but when you have a scanadavian blondie in your hands vava wooom… how did it end up there….
Here was I with the jing-bang chugging along china town already decided to head to beach alone when ahmoi and partner was to come along……ok la the more the merrier….did not think ahmoi would come with the family down and all ..well the kids had a lovely time shopping….

I got to give credit to ahmoi mom she is an excellent cook… gobble down some food… ahmoi dad had to go off for an emergency so off we went…
Met iwor there...he joined us when his date did not show up…I wondered off on my own to cuci mata…..this was a great time for me after coming thru a horrifying week, the traveling, the justifying, the arguments with family and frens and losing my head over the previous blog issue.
I needed it and I got it. Its not easy sailing along and I have experienced that many a times…. Its just a matter of getting used to it…. My avenues of expression have been severely limited but I guess I can accept what I have to face sometimes alone.

Ooooo here was I chugging along to the music when a couple of hand from time to time groping my… I was like WTF was going on..then I spotted her the vava blonde lol headed to the stage and chug the night away…and the rest was actually history.... i enjoyed my self and went into Voyeurism mode hehehe ronda ronda cuci mata

Its always great to see Sam though he was not himself he was trying to mask it which I saw thru… walk a mile in his shoes and you know what I mean…he took us to Bak Kut Teh and we wallop lagi yum yum hahahaha the balik rumah and KO lol

Friday, November 04, 2005

The kids are back

Yahoo. its the holidays and the kids in town... now we got 2 laptop and 1 desktop still the kids fight for it haha so nice to see them puts a smile on my face...i miss small vadai never got the chance to spend enough time..but thats the way the dice rolls am not here to fight for custody right but i roll with the flow

Seeing the kids here in their element makes me smile, I watched a touching moment yesterday a fater attending to a son that coughing in his sleep. a look in his eyes was enough.... the father crawled over to check on his son... a real kodak moment

Anyone wanna join me to go and see Beach volleyball next weekend..only the ladies only...if you wanna watch guys dun share my room hahahahaha ladies playing beach ball sounds like a receipe for a hard on hahaha Wei next week kuantan beach volleyball. stand up and be counted

The more the happier

The home has been a buzz for a couple of days ready...all excited with school holidays..... and ther eis more coming...well its awesome with the family down here all coming form kuantan...hahah they have to rough it out..thru the snoring and the children running to the pool

What the heck....its a delight

Get a life - dun try to change mine

This is for those who want to judge me...for those who feel....well you know who you all are.and dun bother commenting.

I have many frens…some close…some distant…some out of respect for a principal, likewise job or even in sports..some frens I met overnight, some I know for years….some a chance meeting. I have frens in hockey, in IRC, in pub, in school in work and some messanger but never has my rage anger over the definition of friendship when some idiots want to teach me about this. Wei I was not born yesterday and I am not saint, I am human and I have my flaws. But when I make them I move forward dun call me a fren and ring alram bells of reminder just coz you feel the hair at the back of you neck stand. This applies to anyone and everyone. You want to be my fren then be that fren.

1 mistake I often make is, I bend way WAY over back to accommodate frens, sometimes it blow my top but I take it in my stride…but when it starts becoming time after time I start thinking to my self what the fuck am I doing and by this stage its a bit like spiriling out of control maybe coz I am weak. So like the hair that broke the camel's back...not I bite back. Bring it on

In friendship, we cannot become so close to everyone (emphasize this point). Every person have maximum capacity and limitation for being close to us. So we should choose the proper one who can be close enough to us to make a harmonic relationship. I can say this fact in another language if they cant understand english...

(The invisible important fact in friendship) Because of the fact that we consists of so different springs and each spring can oscillate well just with few other springs, so every person can be SO close just to a few numbers of people ( Fact number one) and on the other hand we can't handle too close relationship with someone because of our natural difference. It means that, if we find one proper partner it doesn't mean we can be unlimited close to whom. If we become too close to each other the efficiency of system will decrease since the springs can not oscillate well with each other anymore. We will permanently damage ourselves and each other if we become too close to each other since we need to destroy or change many of our characters and it has the similar aspect of using too much force on the spring (The spring will loose its characters under too much force).

You wanna be my fren then be my fren, dun be my god, my advisor, my guru and my map maker, and most importantly comparing ( oh this fren is like this and that fren is like that and I am not like that) if you still wanna be then don’t call me a fren. Coz you are not? Dun like it fuck off? This is me and when you begin to judge me and give me holy advise on how to life my life without even walking a mile in it YOU HAVE FAILED un use my history just coz you know it against me. You think you really know me. Wei I have walked on this earth for many a years so please you know a certain partof my life you wanna give comment to me..dun go and give Goerge Bush he might listen

M I saying I dun appreciate advise, comments, remarks... I can and those who know me...know I can take them even though I can be thick headed.

Ask you self how well you know you frens and their dark past or their lifestyle or their family, I am a fairly nice guy, I bend way over backwards for a fren but I do draw lines… I am drawing one here and if you dun like it FUCK OFF

Why am I pissed?

Here I am enjoying a tamil movie and it was a good one as you can see in me previous blog… lo behold does a fren sms me some cock-a-mimmy bullshit assumption on 4 key points and listen to this these assumption were derived form reading another blog which had inferences to me For me it does not matter if one make their own assumptions (hey we cant change the world) but the mistake is telling my about it. That drives me up the wall.

For me all my frens are not the same, I treat each differently based on endless number of reasons and if you don’t like it stop being my fren. When I get married some get invited some dun, when I have a birthday some are invited some and if I so happen to have a function in my house and ur not invited dun you dare sms me and ask bout level playing field. Oh when I die all will be equally fren lol

Tonight I draw a line…you either get with the program on how I treat you as a fren if you dun like it TAKE A WALK

DUN teach me about friendship….Here is a crash course…if you still cant understand this then dun bother reading on

Friendship is the relationship which increases the efficiency of two people, therefore we need to combine the parameters that describe this relationship well. These parameters should help us to understand more about any kinds of friendship . I defined these three parameters.

1. Volume of friendship 2. Color of Friendship 3. Inertia

1. Volume of friendship refers to the simple amount of friendship. I mean that it measures the increscent of efficiency of our system similar to the volume of one box but not its weight or its color. In brief definition, it shows how much he/her answers your needs. Most of the time the top rank people in volume are your close friends but it is not the general rule. For example, you may just contact one person just once in three months but you have deep relationship with him/her and you are sure that he/she will support you in any bad occasion.

2. Some times your friend is not special in the amount of friendship but you find him/her special in the kind of friendship. When your special needs are just answered by him/her, it makes your friendship with him/her unique . For example, some times you find yourself just comfortable in front of someone but you do not have chance to increase the amount of your friendship with that buddy. I describe this fact as a color of friendship since some colors are rare so they will be valuable for you.

3. We describe Inertia in physics as a natural fact of every matter. Every matter will go by its own constant speed unless one force changes its velocity. This force is proportional to the mass of following matter and the acceleration. The friendship that has long history can be disturbed harder since it passed its exams before and this relationship is more reliable than the friendship which has a shorter history. Therefore the history of friendship can help us to understand the reliability of friendship.

Let me live my life, I dun need people living it for me, doing an analytical study of it for me based of what you read in my blog, in my frens blogs and more importantly what little you know of me.

I watched a Tamil Movie today

Went to watch a movie, was supposed to be with a fren but he had other plans i watgched it alone and I must add it was an awesome movie.

Vijay did welll and so did Prakash Raj

worth the time to see it

Vijay and director Perarasu are back with 'Sivakasi' after the success of 'Tirupachy' due to be released this Diwali.
'Sivakasi' is an action-packed entertainer. Prakashraj is the bad guy in Sivakasi while Vijay plays the hero and Asin his lady love. Perarasu has penned the lyrics for all the songs while Srikanth Deva has scored the music for the movie. Actress Geetha plays the role of Vijay's mother in the film. Nayantra's appearance for an item number is an icing to the cake.
The story is about a character called Sivakasi, played by Vijay who runs a welding shop. He comes from Sivakasi to Chennai for his livelihood. He is short tempered by nature. Prakashraj plays the role of his brother. It is a movie about mother-son relationship and the sentiment involved in it with all necessary commercial ingredients. As per the script, the happenings were confined in and around Ranganthan Street.

Again I enjoyed this movie so much despite watching it alone, and despite attempts by individuals trying to sms me their point of view which I will address in my next blog

Thursday, November 03, 2005

Nice guys

I mean, nobody likes being treated like an idiot or a doormat. It's just, sometimes I'd like to go out and do something different, unusual, slightly insane..... and most nice guys I know have absolutely no sense of adventure. Present company included. We tend to fall into a lull and laugh away with a mask.

It is not meant to insult us, but some of them are kind of set in their traditional ways. Which makes them come across as rather boring, even if they aren't necessarily. Of course, the age-old fascination of playing with fire, or grabbing the tiger by the tail wont apply to us, it would apply to the flashy jerk like guys.

Do we want to cross over? Are we them? for what benefit or purpose?

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

An Idiots Guide for making TOSAI - hehehe

M having fun...took over the kitchen today.....making todai aka 'dosa' ---- tadaa!!!!


Soak rice, black gram dal and chana separately for 4 hours. Grind all together by adding water. Grind till it becomes very fine paste. Batter should not be very thick. It is like semi-liquid. Add salt.
Keep covered for at least 6 to 7 hours or whole night. So that it will ferment. Once it has risen, stir nicely and be ready to make dosa.

Usually to make dosa griddle is used. Grease the griddle with peanut oil or any other oil.If you don't have this, use non-stick pan. Heat it and pour one ladle full over the griddle and spread the batter from the bottom of the ladle evenly making circles. Drizzle oil or butter around the edges of dosa. Cover the lid. Once it is cooked spread butter and garlic chutney on the top. Take metal spatula and remove from the griddle. Usually if you cover the lid, there is no need to turn it over and cook other side.
Serve it hot with sambar or any type of chutney and batata palya. You can also fill this potato palya inside the dosa while removing from the griddle.

This is how I did it hehe and only one rejected dosa the rest all ok hehe maybe I should quit me daytime job lol..

Mama tosai garing satu!!!

Make sure the flat pan is hot...if necessary use your finger to test. hehehe

Pour one lump/ladel of the 'dosai maa' on to the hot are bound to hear some sort of sizzling noise

Now using your hand, mind and to a certain extent ur body tooo began rotating your body clockwise as u spread the 'maa' from the center spirling outwards. Most importantly use the ladel not the fingers for this process and the end opbective to make the dosai as round as possible

Add ghee/oil/etc etc for 'muru-muru' aka crispy finishing

Take out from pan to plate

Makan la apa lagi

Some Beliefs about Diwali & Its rituals

Well gang here is some more read bout diwali or as call it here deepavali

Why do people clean and decorate their homes for Diwali?
Diwali is considered to be the festival of the Goddess wealth and prosperity Laxmi - Goddess Laxmi visits all homes to bless the people and so to welcome the goddess homes are cleaned & decorated.
Why do people Light up their homes with clay oil lamps?
People light up their homes to welcome Goddess Laxmi. Clay lamps also indicates the victory of Light over Darkness, Good over Evil, as well as the victory of Truth over Falsehood and that man can succeed only through his virtues.
Why do people play cards on Diwali?It is believed that goddess Parvati played dice with her husband, Lord Shiv on this day and she decreed that whosoever gambled on Diwali night would prosper throughout the ensuring year.This tradition of playing cards- flash and rummy with stakes on this particular day continues even to day.

It is the thirteenth day of the month of Ashwin. The word "Dhan" means wealth. As such this day of the five-day Diwali festival has a great importance for the rich mercantile community of Western India. Houses and Business premises are renovated and decorated. Entrances are made colourful with lovely traditional motifs of Rangoli designs to welcome the Goddess of wealth and prosperity. To indicate her long-awaited arrival, small footprints are drawn with rice flour and vermilion powder all over the houses. Lamps are kept burning all through the nights. Believing this day to be auspicious women purchase some gold or silver or at least one or two new utensils. "Lakshmi-Puja" is performed in the evenings when tiny diyas of clay are lighted to drive away the shadows of evil spirits. "Bhajans"-devotional songs- in praise of Goddess Laxmi are sung and "Naivedya" of traditional sweets is offered to the Goddess. There is a peculiar custom in Maharashtra to lightly pound dry coriander seeds with jaggery and offer as Naivedya. In villages cattles are adorned and worshipped by farmers as they form the main source of their income. In south cows are offered special veneration as they are supposed to be the incarnation of Goddess Lakshmi and therefore they are adorned and worshipped on this day.A very interesting story about this day is of the sixteen year old son of King Hima. As per his horoscope he was doomed to die by a snake-bite on the fourth day of his marriage. On that particular fourth day of his marriage his young wife did not allow him to sleep. She laid all the ornaments and lots of gold and silver coins in a big heap at the entrance of her husband's boudoir and lighted innumerable lamps all over the place. And she went on telling stories and singing songs. When Yam, the god of Death arrived there in the guise of a Serpent his eyes got blinded by that dazzle of those brilliant lights and he could not enter the Prince's chamber. So he climbed on top of the heap of the ornaments and coins and sat there whole night listening to the melodious songs. In the morning he quietly went away. Thus the young wife saved her husband from the clutches of death. Since then this day of Dhanteras came to be known as the day of "YAMADEEPDAAN" and lamps are kept burning throughout the night in reverential adoration to Yam, the god of Death.

IT is about 'Narakasur Vadh' (killing of the demon Narakasur), and is held on the fourteenth day of the month of Aashwin. The story goes that the demon king Narakasur ruler of Pragjyotishpur ( a province to the South of Nepal) after defeating Lord Indra had snatched away the magnificent earrings of Aditi, the Mother Goddess and imprisoned sixteen thousand daughters of the gods and saints in his harem. On the day previous to Narakachaturdashi, Lord Krishna killed the demon and liberated the imprisoned damsels and also recovered those precious earrings of Aditi. As a symbol of that victory Lord Krishna smeared his forehead with the demon king's blood. Krishna returned home in the very early morning of the Narakachaturdashi day. The womenfolk massaged scented oil to his body and gave him a good bath to wash away the filth from his body. Since then the custom of taking bath before sunrise on this day has become a traditional practice specially in Maharashtra. In South India that victory of the divine over the mundane is celebrated in a very peculiar way. People wake up before sunrise prepare blood by mixing Kumkum in oil and after breaking a bitter fruit that represents the head of the demon King that was smashed by Krishna, apply that mixture on their foreheads. Then they have an oil bath using sandalwood paste.In Maharashtra also, traditional early baths with oil and "Uptan" (paste) of gram flour and fragrant powders are a `must'. All through the ritual of baths, deafening sounds of crackers and fireworks are there in order that the children enjoy bathing. Afterwards steamed vermiceli with milk and sugar or puffed rice with curd is served.

The THIRD day :
DiwaliOn the dark new moon night, the entrances to all homes are lit up and decorated with rangoli patterns to welcome Lakshmi, the radiant consort of Vishnu and the goddess of wealth and lustre. Lakshmi Puja is performed on this day. Diwali is the last day of financial year in traditional Hindu business and businessmen perform Chopda Pujan on this day on the new books of accounts. The day ends with a mega cracker bursting sessions. For 5-6 hours, every family burns fire crackers worth thousands of ruppees. Poplular fire crackers are sparkling pots, bombs, rockets etc.

The FOURTH day :
New Year day or BestavarshThe day after the Lakshmi Puja, most families celebrate the new year by dressing in new clothes, wearing jewellery and visiting family members and business colleagues to give them sweets, dry fruits and gifts. Among the business communities of Gujarat, Rajasthan, Madhya Pradesh and Maharashtra, Diwali is the festival when the new business year begins. All business establishments and families perform muharat pujan or veneration of their books. Stock brokers do mahurat trading or symbolic auspicious business deals to i iwali : Time to shop or start new ventures } Diwali, one of the longest festivals in the Hindu year, is a time when everything in India comes to a standstill except family life, feasting and shopping. Diwali is considered auspicious for shopping, inaugurations of new homes, business deals or for starting any new ventures and projects.

The Fifth day of Diwali :
Bhai DhoojThe second day of the bright forthnight (Shukla Paksh) of Kartik is called "Bhaiya-Duj". It comes once a year - after Diwali. The name itself denotes the day of the festival i.e.Diwali falls on the absolutely dark night of Amavasya (new moon), Dooj comes two days after Diwali. Many years ago, in the Vedic era, Yama (Yamraj, the Lord of death) visited His sister Yamuna(Yami) and she put the auspicious tilak on his forehead, they ate talked and enjoyed together and exchanged special gifts as a token of their love for each other and Yamraj announced that anyone who receives tilak from his sister on this day will never be thrown. Since then it became imperative for the brother to go to his sister's house to celebrate Bhaiyaduj.On Bhai Dooj, the teeka is applied on the brother's forehead. It is a day dedicated to sisters. We have heard about Raksha Bandhan (brothers day). Well this is sisters day. The sister usually goes in the morning and does the puja in the mother's house, before the brothers leave for their places of study or work.