Sunday, December 25, 2011

Movie Cast Away - Ending - Life ever thrown you a curve ball?

I often think about Life ever thrown you a curve ball? Something happens that you would never have expected. Especialy with my kid around I tend to spend think of eventualities and probabilities. I look at the lives around me and try and learn from them

I do know what I want to do in my future, when my kids grows a little older but there is always that curve ball. It may very well be that it is not the curve ball itself that surprises us, but it is the disappointment from our expectations not being fulfilled. Is our expectations too high or they were placed on the wrong people

I love the details when Hanks comes back, like getting ice again, and I was always really affected by his simple realization about life’s setbacks, “The sun always rises, and you never know what the tide will bring in.” Maybe it was how good Hanks was in that scene, but I always loved that simple line.

Which bring me to the Movie Cast Away with Tom Hanks, I love the ending for Castaway no matter how many I see the movie - In then end Tom was driving up to deliver the one package he did not open on the island to that woman's house who later drove up in the pickup.

I love that Hanks is at a literal crossroads, that he feels the wind and revels in the knowledge that he has complete freedom of choice, nothing holding him down. The music swoons and we move in on him, and he looks past the camera, maybe to Mexico, maybe after the pretty girl in the truck with the ‘wings’ symbol, maybe he’s looking at nothing at all. And then it fades out.

The ending means sometimes people reach a crossroads in their lives where they don't know which way to go. Life is often ambiguous and sometimes options are ones that leave you with more questions than answers.

Monday, October 17, 2011

In response to Rizal Hashim - hoki kena ikut bola

In my honest opinion it boils down to 4 factors - money, structure, popularity, enforcement

Fact is hockey does not have the maturity, depth, and ground structure that football offers to the community neither does it pull in the $$$$ as compared to football

Management of competitions, development and training have NEVER been properly attended to nor enforced as they do not have long term planning or the conviction. There is no structured calendar and it is always a yo-yo decision making year after year. There are facts

almost all states are reliant to government or development funding, the ability to raise fund and build on their own if difficult, all state hockey association do not have ground they own to manage or any form of revenue generation form naming right to jersey sponsorship

structure (competitions)
because the sport of hockey at national level is played seasonally for a period of 2 or 3 months there is no continued competiton for players. You have the national league for a period of 5-12 weeks and thats about it, the rest of the year the clubs who tie these players for a contract over a year do not have much to do.

State competitions too are minimal and short, this is both due to cost of taking partner in long terms competition versus national team calendar.

Note : Our national team is one of the most traveled and has the longest training camp compared to any of the top 10 playing nations in the world

Most states do not have league or even proper playing venue, those that do are at the mercy of the state to pay rental fees etc etc, when it come to maintenance or replacing the turf the states rather let it become a white elephant case in point Selangor having 2 turf and both not playable...and they organize their league games in KL!!!

Getting a SOP out for tournament rules, disciplinary action, stadium requirements are there but not enforced. Selangor Hockey Association introduced a code of conduct for all players and officially to sign for any tournament organized, match official are also trained in game situation, methodology of writing reports and review of match sheets but this is not emulated at national competition and national level.

So when it comes to disciplinary action ther eis always going to be a grey line of application.

We do not have SOP on club transfers, so what club do is tied down players to year long contracts, there is no transfer fees coz the rules do not apply when it comes to player eligibility and not economically viable

In review of the MHL, the amount of money spent on the team for a 2 month competition is far more bigger then the prize money, granted we have airtime on ASTRO but you got to go out there and market the league, sell it as a package, tie up corporations to club 2+1 contracts, we are not doing that. Any medium sized corporation given the air time the league team gets on ASTRO would be able to sell its position on a jersey or team name.

There is also an ambiguity of sponsorship, TNB give MHF the money but all the money is channeled to the league, one party claims they are already giving money to the national body, should that not be filtered down to the states, another party says the money is only for the league and shockingly this is a 7 figure sum.

If MHF are serious about marketing the league then they should bring into consideration license of players, while it may be cumbersome on the initial application over the long term the requirement for a players license will help regulate the add on effects of players transfer, ownership. the overall goal is to raise the standards of the league.

I do not blame if one club dominates the league as they have the financial muscle for it, but I am against the notion that they need to be curtailed. Hockey in Malaysia has more then just 20 great payers, its a matter for getting them, training them and developing then, the onus for this like with the clubs and states.

We do not have a structured calendar compared to football which is very seasonal our calendar depends on the result. For example in 2010 if we do not qualify for the Olympics then calendar changes, if we qualify national hockey competitions is put on hold.

Without national players in the league it is very hard to attract sponsors, raise the standards of the league and increase viewership.

Thursday, October 06, 2011

My two cents

Time and time again we do not have the conviction to make brave decisions for the good of the game...if at all times its gonna be a popularity contest whats the point.

Time and time again we become the laughing stock of other nations because of our compromises, inability to make a stand.

1. For MHC there are no states that are affiliates of MHC only reps from MWHA & MHF.

2. States cannot be affiliates of MHC & MHF - dont make sense dual membership. Name the state that hold dual membership??

3. Be brave
a) Invite as per the constitution the reps from MHF & MWHA to the EOGM - they are the one with the power to change the constitution

b) Invite the states as OBSERVERS for the EOGM as they are not members

c) Full membership for states that have merged the men's and womens like KL, Penang and a few others entitled 1 vote

d) Provisional membership for states that have separate bodies for men or women. For a term of one year - this forces them to merge or else they dont get voting rights coz at present state that have merger get 1 vote, states not merged dun have any votes.

e) Reduce the number of VP. go back to the basics 1 President 2 Deputy President (1 guy 1 lady if you really want) 3-4 VP dats it then ur sec-gen Treas-gen and states are council members.

4. Make a stand
States struck off bar them... yes it kill hockey at lower levels but its the law, go down tothe ground, meet reps there work with them ot revive the body

well dats my two cents

Tuesday, October 04, 2011

Wat the heck are you trying to do?

Did someone shift the goalpost when were not looking??

In today news NST Hockey: MHC prepares to take over - spoke about the merger of the men's and women's hockey association in line with the international governing body (FIH) December deadline.

Fine and dandy, then came the shocker where only 10 affiliates from each body were invited. So there is an uproar from the remaining 6 on the men's side and god knows how many more on the affiliates on the women side.

Here is what I cant figure out so can someone explain to me like I am a 6 year old? Cos this is what I dont understand

1. MHF 16 affiliates,
2. MWHA - 9 affiliates
Pulau Pinang, Perak, Selangor, N. Sembilan, Kuala Lumpur, Pahang, Terengganu, Sarawak & PDRM

MHC was formed on July 16th
On Jul 17, 2005 in the NST - MHC the solution - by Jugjet Singh
THE Malaysian Hockey Confederation (MHC) was born yesterday, and will be operational once the Sports Commissioner's office endorses it. The Malaysian Hockey Federation (MHF) and the Malaysian Women's Hockey Association (MWHA) met yesterday, and agreed that the best compromise to satisfy the International Hockey Federation (FIH) was to have MHC as the umbrella body. The MHC will be responsible for organising international tournaments, but the local leagues and other development programmes will still be run separately by the MHF and the MWHA.
MHF president Raja Nazin Shah said they had three options on how to satisfy the FIH, and the MHC was accepted by all. "The first proposal was to merge the MHF and the MWHA and the body would be called the MHF, and the second proposal was to have a body called the MHF with Malaysian Hockey Association and the MWHA as members.

"But the third proposal, which was to have the MHC with the MHF and MWHA as members was the most popular," said Raja Nazrin. The MHC will have no more than 10 elected office bearers each from the MHF and the MWHA. The proposal will be sent to the Sports Commissioner's office tomorrow.

The MHC will have a president, a deputy president, four vice-presidents, four council members, one secretary, one assistant secretary, one treasurer, one assistant treasurer and not exceeding four independent members.

"The election will also be fair for the MHC, and for example, if the president is from the MHF, then the deputy president will be from the MWHA," said Raja Nazrin. And the situation is the same for the other positions. For example, two vice presidents will be from the MHF, while two from the MWHA. And if the secretary is from the MWHA, then the assistant secretary will be from the MHF. "The representation will be on a 50-50 ratio, as we want both the men and women to be equally represented when making decisions," said Raja Nazrin.

Elections will be held every two years, and if there are any conflicts in either the MHF or the MWHA, the MHC's decision will reign supreme. "We have always had a good working relationship with the MHF, and this new umbrella body will make it even better," said MWHA president Raja Puan Sri Noora Ashikin Raja Abdullah.

a) Now the members of MHC are MHF & MWHA so how did states apply to be direct members of MHC?

b) When did the constitution of the MHC change to increase its membership to include other states?

c) are the 10 states holding dual membership in MHC & MHF???

d) By right the only people who can vote at the MHC-EOGM are reps from MHF & MWHA, the reps from the states are observers

e) States hockey association merges or un-merged needs to apply to be members of MHC you can de-facto transfer membership from one association to another. The constitution stats that clearly.

In compliance with the directive of the International Hockey Federation, the Malaysian Hockey Federation and the Malaysian Women’s Hockey Association was amalgamated to form the Malaysian Hockey Confederation (MHC). As a result, the Malaysian Hockey Federation and the Malaysian Women’s Hockey Association ceased to be Ordinary Members of OCM, with the Malaysian Hockey Confederation taking their place. The Council approved the Malaysian Hockey Confederation as the sole governing body for Hockey in Malaysia on 14th October 2006.

So when I read the news article that only 10 states can be sent letters to something is VERY WRONG!!! States are not members of MHC, they are members of MHF & MHWA, they have no voting rights they are observers.

Only members of MHC can vote at the EOGM - now you have to define who are the members of MHC

The problem is the organization are not being transparent on who are the 10, how they got selected and most importantly will it be legal... We cant continue time and time again making blunders and then paying the consequences for it

Monday, August 15, 2011

The straw that broke the camel's back

The idiom the straw that broke the camel's back is from an Arabic proverb about how a camel wearing shoes is loaded beyond its capacity to move or stand.

This also gives rise to the phrase "the last/final straw", used when something is deemed to be the last in a line of unacceptable occurrences. Every notice how most of the times in a relationship it's something small(which leads to a big fight) that winds up ending it?

Most relationships have disagreements that the beauty of it but after a while the failure sets in when one too many compromises or one too many disagreements reaches a point when disgust sets in.

Relationships are not just confined to lovers, even in familiy or even friends there things happens, while the yarn and tale about trying to repair it and wise words "remember why we started this in the first place" all comes to mind, it does not hide the fact disgust sets in and leaves an ugly taste in your mouth

I had no problem digging in and battling through some very hard times, but something small made me say "enough is enough". The revelation hit, not over a major difference, but rather over something quite trivial.

The last straw is usually based on disgust its an emotion that will engulf your mind body and soul... its not a bad thing. It can come in handy to use it to get rid of poisonous people as well.

Tuesday, August 09, 2011

My Word is Stronger than Oak

Promise only what you can deliver. Then deliver more than you promise.
~ Anonymous.

This statement is from a movie starring Tom Cruise. It denotes that a promise from me is stronger than any contract you can ever sign. Basically its bout keeping you word, or your promise, in this day and age with the vast improvements in technology and communication and the advent of social networking tools people tend to neglect the promises they make or the word they give. It boils down to responsibility, ever more so in today's world you have to be responsible for you action, your deliverance and not take people for granted.

I do not make promises I dont keep, and do my best to deliver what I said I will, but I shake my head in amazement when some dont even care. Forget about life and death, even the simplest things like after confirming that you will attend the match and you dont show up and the cheek to come around later acting nonchalantly like nothing happened?

Or a fren who says I will meet you at 6pm but doesnt show up or forgot about it. In the end, what makes man a man are the choices he makes. Not his past, not his rapport, but by the things he stand for.

That counts in my book.. so stand up and deliver instead of pussy footing around

Friday, August 05, 2011

You must a dimwit to argue with an Umpire

There was an opinion written in The Star Today about Malaysian hockey must bite the bullet, overall he touched about the recently concluded Razak Cup and Hockey in Malaysia.

As I read thru it having been apart of Razak as a player and Umpire, I understood where he was coming from

There was a paragraph or two that got my attention.....The experienced teams like KL and Perak were a letdown when it came to sportsmanship and discipline. My daughter commented. “Why are the national players protesting relentlessly at the referee each time?”

Being a qualified referee and player I could sense the players were “playing” with the referees to gain advantage. This is an unacceptable culture. We need role models.

"people argue with the umpire when they don't agree with the decision the umpire has made in the game"

Does it actually happen? Based on my experience yeah is does, there is a whole of a difference between questioning a call and arguing a decision. I am not gonna single out National Players coz it is rampant throughout the system. Its ok for Players to argue.

So there hockey players who represent state and clubs can be categorized as intelligent/educated players... well not like we can call them stupid players right!! . Why do so many players argue so vociferously with refs after a decision has been made, most players must be truly a tubelight.... How often do you see a decision reversed as a result of protests? Umpires after all are only human, the only thing to be achieved is a wound up ump....

Now how many time have we hard this phrase and yet time and time again we see it happening, especially with the advent of players swearing at umpires and the Tv camera catches them

The problem they get away with it. Team Captains let it happen, Umpires turn the other cheek, Managers (dont get me started), Coaches add fuel to fire, Technical Officials who dont bother all this and more contribute.

Now I ask you this, when is the last time you saw an umpire being applauded at, thanked after the game for a good advantage, a correct decision... Gosh I dun recall ever... It must start, and must start with everyone!!!

Tuesday, August 02, 2011

Milestones & What's next

Mallory O'Brian: And we went to the moon. Do we really have to go to Mars?
Sam Seaborn: Yes.
Mallory O'Brian: Why?
Sam Seaborn: 'Cause it's next. 'Cause we came out of the cave, and we looked over the hill and we saw fire; and we crossed the ocean and we pioneered the west, and we took to the sky. The history of man is hung on a timeline of exploration and this is what's next.

I am a great fan of West Wing, its was a television series that inspired and continues to inspire people even after its 7 magnificent seasons and this is a quote from an episode in that movie..


We all wanna leave our mark, do our bit, some talk more, some do more but nothing says it best that actually doing it. A fren of mine often used a phrase "Walk the Talk" and that became synonymous with what I had envisioned for em in May 2009 when I got elected to a position in a hockey body.

We needed to shock the system, revitalize the sport, raise the bar in performance make a change, put in place a plan and execute it.. soon the WE became I, it had to start with me, If I do not step up then I cannot expect others to do the same. So we became I!!!

In the part 27 months we have made changes, I used the word we here because of the support I got from outside the association I was elected to. Too many dead woods but my friend and fellow hockey lovers believed in what we wanted to do, withing the association in the main council there was only 5 of a possible 22 that actually bothered to life a finger to support, there rest were set in their own lazy ways or finding ways to sink out projects

To put it simple without my friends and supporters none of this would have mattered So when I stand here and say we have made milestones, I give all the credit to them.

This past 1 month has been THE TOUGHEST if not one of the toughest

We aaccomplish 3 major events
  1. PSC Tournament - Synergy
  2. 100PLUS-SHA Awareness Clinic (over 200 kids and major coverage in TV and print media)
  3. Synergy Indoor Hockey Tournament (full indoor spec)
Trying to manage this along side with work and friends and family certainly toll its on my mind and body especially with some friends and family. While some walked away and some choose to make a stand, I did not gave time to battle back but merely just accept them for the choices the made.

At times it meant going to the ground and carrying out the task my self or roping other friends to help me out or even phone calls round the clock, what ever it took to get the job done, we did it

The icing on the cake of this milestone was the 100plus kids program and the indoor tournament


I dont know... looking for a challenge, to inspire or be inspired but at the same breath I hate having to same the same problems, I wonder if ther eis a light at the end of the tunnel when other look at what been done and take the I to become a 'WE'

Walk the talk

Friday, July 22, 2011

Ending of a chapter - suicide

“Suicide is man's way of telling God, "You can't fire me - I quit."” Bill Maher quotes

If you scroll thru the internet you many kinds of death and most of the in those posted in main stream papers or the WWW are tragic or unexpected ones. We generally read it in passing unless it is someone we know or met in our journey thru life. Sometimes it becomes a coffee table or happy hours point of discussion

In all honestly, I struggle to comprehend death especially its timing, why some are in my opinion before their time and some you wish it was sooner. I dont believe in shift the blame or death to a high being that's taking the easy way out,. In a society that demands for clear definition and questioning WHY? in every possible subject, we tend to take the easy way on this subject.

While trying to wrap my head around that, I am faced with another conundrum - suicide. If death if hard enough to accept the manner in which an individual decided to end his or her life and the dramatic impact it leaves on friend and family if beyond words. It is a whole different ball game, Maybe I over think about it but i cant help my self.

JESSE VENTURA, former wrestler and Governorship of Minnesota in his book "I Ain't Got Time to Bleed" said 'I'm not disparaging suicides when I call them weak, I'm pointing out that anybody who would consider doing a thing like that needs help. I don't think a normal, mentally healthy person commits suicide.'

Sitting down Tuesday returning my quiz night I was approached by a fren that informed me someone I know had committed suicide. Did not matter young or old? I was shocked to hear it. There was a range of emotion as the news sunk in ..Shock, a loss for words and in the mind were question Why?

It easy to type out we have problems we should over come, we never will know what was on that person's mind to drive them to suicide, walk a mile in their shoe!!

What adds to that conundrum is despite all the family and friends and lovers they had they could not speak it out or share it our or confesses or work the issues out and death was the only option. the sad part is we did nto see it coming , there lies our failure as a fren or a family or as a lover

A life is lost and thats sad.

Wednesday, July 06, 2011

I love what I do - another first project of its kind

I love my sports, I am passionate about what I believe I can do and get people alone to help me out... bout two years ago I got elected to a position, ironically as many can attest I never went there to get elected. Why? You could say I am am the kind of guy that swims against the tide so that make me a trouble maker....I know the rules and I know the opportunities, so when I got elected I got to work.

Short term goals long terms goals I was determined that n my 2 years of being elected, till the term expired I will give 101% and set standard that people can look up to and emulate. I guess I am lucky to have a Deputy President that shares the same passion and vision of what we must to do dig ourselves out of the hole we are in. It was never easy... while some toiled some just warmed the seats.

But we set standard and continued to improve ourselves and the people around us to raise the level of the game in this state. We did a lot of things First, heck we are proud of it, we wear our colors with pride, granted there are some lame asses who want to steal the credit, who want to bring us down... go ahead... you know why? we are here for 2 years to do a job. If you want us back you know where to tick!!

ANOTHER FIRST - I am working hard right now on another project where the goal is to get 150 kids below the ages of 10 & 12 from schools in the Selangor and have a clinic to improve their skills while having fun at the same time learn about the Razak Cup and its 48 year legacy. I want to give the kids the opportunity to look at the trophy, touch it , take pics with it. I want to get National players and former Razak Cup greats to come, lets the kids see them, take pics with them, listen to them talk about their experiences.

It has not been done before and I dun plan to make it a one off event!!! Throw away you game-boy, Facebook, PS2 for one morning of playing the game you love and have fun with and meet the STARS. Whats wrong in that? I want the kids to be in awe when they meet the National Players, or when they look at the Razak Cup Trophy, when the former greats of Razak show up..

I am working hard, working my ass off to make this happen, coz I know in my heart and mind if this works the chain reaction it gonna rock.... the I will be in my corner patting my own back as I watch the kids enjoy

Help me help you...

Friday, June 17, 2011

Father's Day

"My grandfather always said that living is like licking honey off a thorn." -- Louis Adamic

It never ceases to amaze me how the commercial aspect of Mother's day has caught on with Father's day.. Today Father’s Day is becoming an important day of celebration and gradually catching up with the more popular Mother’s Day worldwide. It seem to outshine Children's day hahaha

Where Mother’s Day is seen to be more sentimental, Father’s Day is seen more as a day of practical gift giving such as DIY tools etc. However the most popular Father’s Day present is apparently the gift of a tie.

The general advise is No matter what you call your father — dad, papa, pop and so on — Father's day is a chance for you to celebrate your father and recognize just what he is and what he has done for you.

When I grew up we shows our resepct and appreciate to our parents, granted not all the time, expecially when we were getting the shit out of us but we also knew it was their responsiblity to keep us in check.

After a decade of being a father I have come to realize some very poignant and important things about the role. At first it just seemed surreal, and at times it still does. there are many a times filled with frustration, stress and sacrifice involved in being a parent. But there also great time when you just flying with your Junior.

There are times when you have to put ur foot down and fight off family and relative but above all there are no right paths or right decisions, it always gonna be a learning curve. What I learn growing up I discard the bad and ugly and try to give and do my best, sometimes its never enough but hey tha life!!

At times my mom would chuckle or try to control her laughter when Junior Vadai and I go head to head or when Junior Vadai interacts with her or my sis or relatives.. She would say the things I used to do as a kid.. he is doing it now, mannerism, nottyness, etc etc

Go figure... The best part of hearing that was it made me smile lol

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

The Ghost from the past

Its unique and funny how you end up meeting people...I would say I am lucky to have made friends from real life, childhood even people i have met online. Many of my best friends are people who met thru the power of the internet ... some at time if they end up being friends or part ways... it even more unique when some you know and had a relationship with shows up with you new pal.... well such an incident took place last night when a pal sitting across the table showed up with a fren... initially I did not recognize ... when she approached with a hi and hello it was pleasantly surprising... after apologizing profusely for not recognizing her we did some catching up almost 12 years of catching up... a good memories

well that one person more to add in face book

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Calling the cup an idiot

Stevie Wonder : You can't base your life on other people's expectations.

There is a grey line when it comes to expectations especially when it comes to friends and more so when it is family. Like a kid celebrating a birthday expecting a particular gift after dropping all the hints the anti climax is when that the family dont pick up and the kid goes into a sulky mood the punch line would certainly by "I gave you enough hints"

The classic example will always I left you enough signs. While its easy to brush aside the above kids predicament its a whole different ball game when it comes to adults.

While the preaching of family ties and bond and blood or even in friendship with words as trust, openness and buddy or bro etc etc, the viciousness in the silent expectation of the others conduct, deliverable and reliability is a cancerous to one's own. It will eat you within, tear you up but on the outside you portray all is well.

Why it happen coz using excuses like respect, honor, friendship, I did it for you so you must do it for me or the classic this is the minimum standards for friendship / relationships

My question is this who actually define these standards? Whatever happen to talking about it? does it make you smaller? Cheap? too shy?

I watched brother and sister not talk to each over over 15 years god only knows for wat reason and all it took was the brother going to the wrong address where the sister lives and a tearful reunion takes place and all is forgiven

Communication is the key, when family or friend refuse to communicate and take self professed stand and opinion who do you actually expect the other party to know. When family draw lines for the weirdest reasons its the other party that suffers? do they deserve it?

Me? simple if you wanna go and draw lines and behave in that manner..... I probably ask once or twice then carry on. Why? Life is hard enough as it is with work and challenges to life by the last thing I need is for someone having an issues with me and refuse to tell me the reason lol

Blaming others for the pain we feel each time someone fails to live up to our expectations is no different than burning our tongue on coffee that's too hot to swallow, and then calling our cup an idiot! - Guy Finley

Saturday, June 11, 2011

Dey Chitragupta

Dey Chitragupta.. avan kanak-kai soll

Yama or Yemen is the lord of death in Hinduism, first recorded in the Vedas. In Vedic tradition Yama was considered to have been the first mortal who died and espied the way to the celestial abodes, thus in virtue of precedence he became the ruler of the departed. In some passages, however, he is already regarded as the god of death.

Yama is assisted by Chitragupta who is assigned with the task of keeping complete records of actions of human beings on the earth, and upon their death deciding to have them reincarnated as a superior or inferior organism, depending on their actions on the earth.

So my opening line loosely translates to Yeman asking his accountant the fate of the human being in question. Why death? A definative end, a termination a point you cant cross.. and it all related to living.

I have a close family relative that bed ridden and sick over many years she slips in between times and in moments of lucidness is able to recall who you are and more... we have resigned i to the fact its just a matter of time she will pass on...and yet everytime there is a a sign pointing in that direction we all gather around to visit her. With all due respect to her, someone that I love and care for a lot maybe Winston Churchill is right when he said “I am ready to meet my Maker. Whether my Maker is prepared for the ordeal of meeting me is another matter.”

And yet as she pull thru day after that it is the unexpected "terminations" crudely put... terminations of life, relationships and what not that catches off guard.

Sometimes these are the things I am not prepared for.. for sometimes I just go numb.. maybe it is easier that way

Friday, June 03, 2011

I am perplexed

I am perpelxed, at times confused and at others a little irritated by this thing we call comminucation between friends

Eg 1 when someone does not sms or call you in a while and you reach by phone or sms and say hmmm "Hey how you doing not heward from you in a while bla bla bla ..." and you get a reply.. "Well I wanted to see how long before you would get in touch with me" and I am like WTF???

Eg 2 a pal facing a prob so you ask if everything is ok and you get a repla yeah I am ok... aparently that is a lingo to say " no no no I am facing the mother of all problems and I am waiting for you to ask me properly, or ask me a few times before I can tell you about it" and I am like WTF???

More to come

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Greatness, Pride, Ego all worthless

The Narrator talks about a traveller who sees a sunken statue The poem deals with human hubris, and how greatness will not endure. The narrator sees this ruined area with a statue of this mighty lord Ozymandius who is no more. All that is left at the end is lone and level sand. The great works of man though potent in their time will not last. It is this irony that the poem points to.


I met a traveller from an antique land
Who said: Two vast and trunkless legs of stone
Stand in the desert. Near them, on the sand,
Half sunk, a shattered visage lies, whose frown
And wrinkled lip, and sneer of cold command
Tell that its sculptor well those passions read
Which yet survive, stamped on these lifeless things,
The hand that mocked them and the heart that fed.
And on the pedestal these words appear:
"My name is Ozymandias, king of kings:
Look on my works, ye Mighty, and despair!"
Nothing beside remains. Round the decay
Of that colossal wreck, boundless and bare
The lone and level sands stretch far away.

Saturday, May 14, 2011

helping others

when did we say it time to stop helping others?

“In helping others, we shall help ourselves, for whatever good we give out completes the circle and comes back to us.” Flora Edwards quotes

This quotes comes in so many languages that my my elders use to tell me growing up... today my friends was doing some mini shifting and me and Junior went to help out, it was friends or neighbors do. We help out carrying things loading them up into the lorry and really enjoyed ourselves.

Thought the body was a little sore it was a pleasure more ways then one. For Junior it was nice to seem him put his back into it despite his young age.

You got to trust your self with children, there was an empty gas tank that he wanted to carry, I took a grip of the tank estimate its weight and told him to try, it was not an easy task but wanted to so I let him. I guess if there were others around they would have ended up saying "Oh No how can you carry that, oh its dangerous " etc etc

I learn since he was young not to put children on a leash, let him try, if he fails we are there to help. Do you remembers your first bike ride without support, you gonna stumble, you gonna trip, and you might hurt your self a little and you learn better.

Kids need to have fun doing what they are doing, you just need to learn to trust them a little.

Saturday, April 16, 2011

There are cows everywhere

It is indeed ironic but it is true there are cows in sports organization and other blind cows following them blindly and the funny part is they get re-elected every term.

Where does the fault lie?

Its comical at time when officials elected to post have cobwebs around them and only awaken a couple of months before to take credit or to discredit others. At time at matters that have no bearing but like a good media blitz, such cows and fellow cows whip it into a frenzy...

Why comical? They throw words such at illegal, un-constitutional etc etc just to gain popularity when in fact they are the poison that kill the sport.

At times I admire people on the ground who are crying for activities and trying to revive the sport only to be held hostage by cows and fellow cows who hold a bunch of votes. Hence the word majority rules.

I am here to do a job, leave the politics at the door and come and work with me, I will work with anyone even my enemies but NEVER use it as a platform for self interest.

Do we need change? YES
Do we need to educate the affiliates? YES
Do we need fresh face ? YES

How when the majority is with the cows? Maybe just do what you do best, when your term is up walk with your head held high

Vadai walked the talk

Friday, April 15, 2011


I miss the coffee bean at KLCC, it had a nice balcony can you could watch the fountain show.. memories came flooding back when i was at Chillis and looking down as it was raining and the fountain was doing its dance.

When I started in Kl this would be my regular seating spot, at coffee bean or the steps by the fountain having my drink or bites watching the water do its thing.

Used to enjoy watching people pass by kids playing and feeling the evening sun or the occasional drizzle....

Monday, April 11, 2011

The 50th anniversary of human space flight

“There are lots of hungry people in the world, and none of them are hungry because we went to the moon. None of them are colder and certainly none of them are dumber because we went to the moon.”

Half a decade has passed since man's first space flight.. I paused and reflected how far we have come in that 50 years... Gagarin's flight was seen as a huge accomplishment and was celebrated around the world, and it kicked off the space race between what was then the Soviet Union and the United States.

Following that U.S. President John F.Kennedy challenged his nation to put the first man on the moon by the end of the decade, which they did in 1969. For his part, Gagarin became a huge celebrity. He visited dozens of countries to celebrate his accomplishment. Since Gagarin's flight, 522 people from 38 nations have flown in space: 335 from the U.S., and 111 from Russia.

To commemorate the 50th anniversary of human space flight.. The UN General Assembly adopted a resolution at a special session on Thursday declaring April 12 the International Day of Human Space Flight.

We have come a long way since that day 50 years ago both good and bad.. we seen the arms race and cold wars escalate, we have see technology grow for better and worse to help humanity... as I look back at it I am reminded human we are by that event and how we must cherish life, family and friendship instead of bickering over small matters.... The quote from West wing says it all... Live life to the fullest and respect the friendship you have with your friends

Bartlet: It was not a space ship from another planet, just another time -- a long since abandoned Soviet satellite. One of its booster rockets didn't fire and it couldn't escape Earth's orbit. A sad reminder of the time when two powerful nations challenged each other and then boldly raced into outer space. What will be the next thing that challenges us, Toby? That makes us go farther and work harder? You know that when smallpox was eradicated, it was considered the single greatest humanitarian achievement of this century? Surely we can do it again, as we did in the time when our eyes looked towards the heavens, and with outstretched fingers we touched the face of God.

Tuesday, April 05, 2011

India World Champions - Cricket

WOW now the India world champions its dream team makes it true. It takes a long journey for India the moment when India win the world cup hold everyone’s breathe for a minute. Last day the world cup final match India vs Srilanka Final was held in the Mumbai home town of Sachin the all persons watching it in the stadium of live at their TV sets were waiting for the each ball delivered that take India to the victory of the world cup.

Quotable Quotes

1 . India was hit by a Tsunami called Mallianga - after losing Shewag & Tendulkar quickly

2. Just saw a Sri Lankan drinking tea out of a plate. He said Indians took the cup.

India’s last world cup championship trophy was already 28 years ago. One of the sweetest victory in Indian Cricket for they have won against arch-rival Pakistan in the semis and defeated depending champion Sri Lanka in the Finals.

Even in Malaysia die hard cricket fans made time to watch matches especially the blockbuster match between Pakistan versus India. This was the scene of the finals between Sri Lanka & India on Saturday

The Indian National Cricket team have overcame a 274-run inning by the Sri Lankans. The partnership of MS Dhoni and Gautam Gambhir made the Indians came alive as their hopes have already losing their first two batsmen including the Master Sachin Tendulkar in the opening overs.Dhoni and Gautam Gambhir led the comeback, as both came just shy of 188 runs between them. Dhoni finished of with a sixer... what a way to win the match

Toddy & Exotic Food

Around the time of my birthday in March, a couple of buddies and I we chatting about various drinks and how they are made and I made an off hand remark bout Toddy.

Toddy, or sometimes spelt Todi locally known as "Kallu", is a type of coconut wine. Yes yes it is classified as coconut wine not to be confused with Jamaican rum... some say that toddy should be branded and called Siva's Regal (not to be confused with the whiskey Chivas Regal) - "taste the same, high the same...but its not the same".

So we decided we should make an attempt to experience this and set aside April 16 as the target date. After we were talking about the The Star actually has a article on it and that spurred us on more ..Last Sunday a couple of the local Klang guys went on a rekkie trip to scout placed where they serve.

What we found was not a dingy joint but a local backyard gravel filled court yard concept with a few palm trees and tables with plastic chairs and umbrella that you can relax and chill.

Toddy is served served either as Padaneer (a sweet, non-alcoholic beverage derived from fresh sap) or kallu (a sour beverage made from fermented sap, but not as strong as wine). What is served in this joint is Kallu. Kallu is usually drunk soon after fermentation by the end of day, as it becomes more sour and acidic day by day. However, it may be refrigerated to extend its life.

We made a mistake in the concept of ordering is, we ordered a bucket of 2 bottles immediately with chilly and cut onions the idea would be to order 1 bottle at a time

Another plus point about this place is the availability of spicy food to compliment the drinking, exotic food form wild boar to iguana aka 'udumbu' to the usualy chicken mutton and surprisingly they actually have vegetarian dishes.

Come April 16, god willing we be making a trip and hope to write more about it

I just dont get it!!

I wonder if SHELL MALAYSIA got anything to say about this picture below

I just cant wrap my head around the decline in following simple rules and safety, at times I am aghast and the irresponsibility or 'tidak apa' attitude that common people, sons, fathers mothers and other portray day to day.

What amazing is its across the board and the icing on the cake is they do not give a damm who they hurt as long they get free

Friday, April 01, 2011

1-4-1989, remembering the events

In memory of Poologasingam Mapanapillai departed 1-4-1989

This thread is not about venting or bitch but just recoding my thoughts bout the fateful day my dad passed away and evens prior and post that... Its not meant to burn anyone.. just me and my thoughts

22 years ago my dad passed away

1989 1st of April will always leave a mark on me and directly and indirectly change my perception of what family and relatives mean to me and events following that further cemented that.

Being a young kid from an inter-marriage that did not work out too well my family left my dad and came to live under the guardianship of my uncle who was also married to my father's sister thus the inter-marriage, they too did not work out too well and so it came to be. Family politics were always vicious and being young children sometimes we were used as pawns by the males. Both sides has their wrong and no one wanted to look at the bigger picture.

In 1984 Summer Olympics, my uncle (who was my guardian) his wife aka my father sister has passed on. The funeral was more of a territory war then a reunion, ugly situation was ever present during the funeral and the 31 day prayers that follow and that lead to a "no fly zone" ruling to separated the family my dad's side and my uncle's side. At this funeral the battalion of mourners, supporters and relatives all 'turn padang' so to speak and events during that and the following years we ended up like estranged family members separated by the politics and family war.

Life does go on and I grew up in Klang, under the thumb but could never speak ... I rebel a lot and that lead to a lot of things right and wrong. There is always the stigma of the broken family or the single parent, I used to cringe the report card day or sports days when parents would turn up especially dads and fren would ask where is ur dad etc etc I am not being bitter my father was not around, I understood the reasons for that and grew up with it. Most of my frens as I grew up never knew my story and I never shared.

April 1 was a Sunday when I went to bed when I was woken up and informed my dad has passed away, the first words was this must be an April Fools joke!! alas it was not. I was summoned downstairs and the powers that be decreed that I was going alone for my dad funeral and no one else from the family were to go for the funeral. The first thoughts in my mind was WTF!!! My mom, and the rest of te relatives was also barred from going.

I was numb not sleeping that night as I went upstairs, there was a flurry of phone calls and other things taking place, bout 3am I was informed that I would be put on a train in the morning to Kluang for the funeral and to return back when it is over. So much for family and its politics,

That Monday morning, here is your ticket, here is some pocket money ok off you go for your dad's funeral you uncles (dad's side) would meet you at the station...the 8+hour train journey to Kluang all alone left a mark on me, as sat on the steps of the train near the door looking out, I question many a times why I was sent alone, why the politics of family were like this and if I deserved such a treatment. Tears did flow as I struggle to put the pieces together.

How would my dad's relatives receive me, how would the funeral be, what was I supposed to do, where are my uncles and aunts and family to support me, where were my cousins to provide the support and shoulder... all those thought and more accompanied me on that journey...I had to keep repeating myself about how he was found dead, asking why he was alone..... how it was so sudden.. to a stage I felt so overwhelmed.

As I came closed to my destination, having not slept the night before, drained by my thoughts and not eaten thru my journey I returned to my seat tired and down, I had dozed off as I awoken to the sound the train had reached Kluang, I struggled to get out of the train and by the time I could grab my belonging and hop out on to the Kluang station the train was already rolling.. I would see both my uncles (dad's younger brother and brother in law) trying to find me at the station, half my thought was to jump out of the train but it was too risky.

No cell phone those days lol.. the minute I did not get down my dad's relatives panicked wondering where I was, some thought went as far if my uncles (mon's side) had changed their mind and renegaded on the deal. I got down at Simpang Renggam a town alien to me and grabbed a cab to Sunrise Park my grand father house in Kluang that I grew up.

It was a roller coasted of emotions as I got down from the cab walking to the house, as my dad's side relatives uncles and aunts came to embrace me crying and all that and I was numb... my grandfather embraced me and I did not see my dad's body.. apparently it had not arrived from Kuala Lipis and when it did, it arrived in a fisherman lorry as they could not get a hearse, that sparked off another roller coaster of emotion. The funeral went alright, all the rituals and wat nots were done... and over with.

I placed one phone call to say i had arrived and the one who spoke on the phone never even ask how was I but asked why I missed the station and the problems I had caused .. yeah i know another WTF moment

Post funeral as I was sitting at my grandfather's swing my cousins on my dad sides did not approach me, they were younger and was wondering who was this stranger who claims to be their eldest male cousin..My dad who I had not communicated much over the past 9 years after separation, excerpt an occasional meet up, birthday cards once in a while, yet for the funeral so much of his friends & and people who knew him came up to speak to me after the funeral.

What amazed me was the fact he was always top class to his frens and his family, tales of buying food, or a breath of fresh air when he walked into the room, helping his family, teasing his sisters and his parents kind of like the naughty rebel that people loved. There was his dark side but you dont talk about those thing in funerals a big NO NO lol. The 2-3 days I was there, I was welcomed by my dad's side family but I was also the outsider being there having not associated with them for a long time.

I would never wish what I went thru to anyone, the emotional and physiological impact on a 17 year old kid can never be truly put down in words. Monthly following that events I went south in studies, sports, family and many others, I did not do stupid thing like smoking or drugs, but i did go south.. it took me a long time to turn it around but I did, I still could not come to terms but I learn to live with it.

The kicker was after the funeral, my aunt called me in Kluang and asked if I was ok and how I was holding up, I do treasure that call and I learned later on that my aunt got a ticking off from the powers that be for making that call. That was the only person that reached out to me... sad but true. when I got back to the day to day life some of my frens in school knew about it and offered condolences but I never talked about it.. was never sure if it was coz I had rage or I decided to pack it in... maybe a little of the both...

A few years later after my dad's funeral apparently the powers that be has soften their stand and had a change of heart and went of to a few funerals of my dad's side especially my grandfather where the who family plus relatives showed up.... so now my immediate family which is my mum and my sis are the bad sheep coz they did not show up at my dad funeral and the rest of the family are forgiven.. why oh they showed up at my grandfather funeral and all is patched up...

So here was a conundrum... why is it for your dad funeral they sent you alone but for your grandfather funeral everyone came running....crude but true.. so much for principals and righteousness. I would never comprehend or understand the decisions principals and decision that were made, I never forgive my relatives for dancing to that tune. It was a train journey that changed the way I think and looked at how a family and relatives should be.

In a family when you make a choice and a principal you can enforce it across the board, never do, do not police or enforce your decision to other family members, they have a right to decide and stand on their own feet.

Like these days I have a grudge so to speak with my number 9 uncle who played out my mum, my mum forgave him but I did not, I do not speak to him for what he did to my mum but the rest of my family can interact with him and even my son gives him the proper respect for my beef is only with him and the rest of my family should never be a party to that.

I always try to encourage to my cousins that family is important, that relatives are important and make the effort to keep in touch. For me I will never allow another situation that I went thru to ever come to play with any of my cousins, that would be the last and it ended with me.

In the end it was a train ride that changed me..

Monday, March 28, 2011

Patty Griffin - Mary

I heard this song for the first time tonight on "Sons of Anarchy." they played it when the mother told her son & husband that she had been raped, beaten, and left out in the cold. it made the men in her life realize how important she is. This song is beautiful. when it says "Mary stays behind and starts cleaning up the place" it sends chills all down my back. it tells what important roles mothers, or any woman, plays in the world. You should really watch that episode of Sons of Anarchy and see the totally different meaning the song takes. You can actually feel this song!!!

Mary you're covered in roses, you're covered in ashes
You're covered in rain
You're covered in babies, you're covered in slashes
You're covered in wilderness, you're covered in stains
You cast aside the sheet, you cast aside the shroud
Of another man, who served the world proud
You greet another son, you lose another one
On some sunny day and always you stay, Mary

Jesus says Mother I couldn't stay another day longer

He flys right by and leaves a kiss upon her face
While the angels are singin' his praises in a blaze of glory
Mary stays behind and starts cleaning up the place

Oh Mary she moves behind me

She leaves her fingerprints everywhere
Everytime the snow drifts, every way the sand shifts
Even when the night lifts, she's always there

Jesus said Mother I couldn't stay another day longer

He flys right by and leaves a kiss upon her face
While the angels are singin' his praises in a blaze of glory
Mary stays behind and starts cleaning up the place

Mary you're covered in roses, you're covered in ruins

you're covered in secrets
Your'e covered in treetops, you're covered in birds
who can sing a million songs without any words
You cast aside the sheets, you cast aside the shroud
of another man, who served the world proud
You greet another son, you lose another one
on some sunny day and always you stay
Mary, Mary, Mary

Friday, March 25, 2011

It may all be gone tomorrow

Make time, take time, make a plan, say the words you want to say look around you, drink it all in, appreciate what you have coz it may all be gone tomorrow.

We are influenced directly and indirectly by events around us, no matter if it is your birthday, the passing away of a relative, earthquakes and tsunamis in Japan, either one or all will effect you. The problem with that, is with people in general, coz all of this is a phase, while its still an issue its at the front of your mind and you will feel it then it fades away. Maybe that's why they say grasp the iron while it is hot.

I appreciate life, no no i aint gonna be a vegan or roll temple to temple ( no disrespect) but I do appreciate life, I want to live to the fullest I can, try all that I can within my financial and physical capabilities as I grew up not having such opportunities. I do not forget my obligations to my son, my mom and my friends. My junior is my pride and joy, while we may not share the same page but we have loads of fun, I try to mask the challenges of life and the problems that emerge from the functionality of a family but he will soon have to learn and adapt to the real truths that I shield him from.

Still I love him like no other I can only say this, you got to be a DAD to know what it is like to love your son.. its different from a daughter.. (I do wish I had a daughter too but that chapter is closed)

I sometimes wish I has the patience and forgiveness that my mom has but i am not cut that way... my ball game is I will take what ever you can dish out then no more.. I dun visit back the same chapter twice... life goes on... my dad used to say I had no feet till I met a man with no shoes.. why i say that is no matter what challanges and hurdles life throws at me I can live with hope or illusion or physiological advantage someone out there got it more worse then me. When facing the dad to day challenges of life and family and finance and friends I often re-visit the quote I heard in the TV series West Wing President Bartlet "...every time we think we've measured our capacity to meet a challenge we look up and we're reminded that that capacity may well be limitless..."

I knew my father the first 7 years of my life then in bits and pieces and come the end of the month it will be 22 years since he passed on and I still remember that train ride alone to Kluang, I would never forgive my Uncle for that singular moment anyway that for another blog.

Again I wish I could forgive easily but some things are not meant to be forgiven, its not the end of the world if you dont forgive just move on but dun forget. Its a crime when you keep revisiting that incident and harping on it.

Tomorrow it may all go away, true but I live today for today, I have good frens, so so fren, and enemies, before I look for imperfections with them I know my imperfections.... it never easy but I take a positive spin on it. It may not be easy for my friends to understand me but make a point to understand them, for the latter is far more better weight to carry.

I love my friends to bits, at time I may not hit the right notes with them and vice versa but thats what friendship is all about. It about taking their punches and not complaining about it, To quote a fren who share a table with me after last night hockey "at 4.30am I got a call from India my father had died I had to bring the body back, I called my friends and all offered to help, one guy just said, Dont worry, I will handle the body back to KL, and he delivered" withing 24 hours the body was back and not a single compliant or bitching.

The true testament of friendship it being there for them rolling thru the punches and stepping aside when you know its time to let go.... not about advertising your mile stones with them

Never forget humility and mannerism, never forget where you came from and never forget your friends birthdays... however insignificant as it may, I make it a point to remember birthdays, anniversaries, significant moments in their lives, I do it again and again for it may all be gone tomorrow

to quote the lyrics of a song

Where did I go wrong?
I lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best

Because after all, you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
Things you told him all along
Pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

And where did I go wrong?

I lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice

You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things:
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Death is inevitable but we should ....

“We all die. The goal isn't to live forever, the goal is to create something that will.” - Chuck Palahniuk quotes

In the past few week I have come to celebrate the birth of nephews and nieces...In the past few week I have come to celebrate the birth of nephews and nieces and birthdays of the young ones.. I watch my self in the mirror as I grow a year older a couple of days ago and in a couple of week will watch my junior do the same.

However last night I received news a relative that I admired and respected passed on. We all say death is inevitable and, whether willingly or unwillingly, everyone passes on but it is upon death of people around us, especially people close around us that we will reflect.

When my cousin that I loved and respected a lot passed on early this year, there was a lot of anguish and there was more pride and the journey he had accomplished battling cancer and life's obstacles to get to where he is.

Last night when the uncle passed away, I too reflected, in a day and age where earthquakes and tsunami are taking place, bombs flying from ships to land, the world that gripped in disputes and overthrowing of governments, there remains one fact that is undisputed, Death. No matter what religion, group or sect one may be attached to, the fact of dying is not refuted.

I watched how this uncle and he loving wife raised their children, brought them up and accomplished is a mile stone it self, and he had laid many milestones in his life.

I look at the world I am living in, what I am providing for my junior, what I cannot provide for him and realise its not a bad patch of cabbage where we are not. I have lived with the roll of the dice, while some may have a difference of opinion, I can still smile. Yeah death is inevitable but I am living life on step at a time.

Births should be celebrated so must death. Not the passing but the life that was lived. I have echoed this fact many a times to my cousins and friends, should the time comes for me to pass on... have a wake, no crying but enjoy the life that was lived...remember me for that!!

The best quote I can choose to tell about this Uncle is from the movie The Last Samurai

Emperor Meiji [about Katsumoto]: Tell me how he died.
Nathan Algren: I will tell you how he lived.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

I love this game

I love this game, I learned it from my teaches, I played it, I coach people in it, I have umpired it, I have manage teams in it, I have organized it, pretty much done everything for the love of the game.

Its not a sport you make money out of it, doing what I do it is a sport they you do have to spend a little money. But the pleasure of getting the job done, playing the game, forming a team, battling it out on the field or turf or courts the rewards and unmeasurable.

so it becomes pretty frustrating when people set up blockades and tai-chi and try to create problems for you. It is unfortunately they did not have the courage to say it to my face but choose an opportunity when I am not around to blackball me.

Have the guts to ask me question on my face instead of trying to influence the people behind my back.. and to the people who are listening to these fella... I got 3 words for you "BE THE MAN"

Wednesday, March 09, 2011

This is beautiful

A wonderful celebration of the fact of being alive, shot through with
excitement and exhilaration and sheer unbridled joy:

Get Drunk!
Always be drunk.
That's it!
The great imperative!
In order not to feel
Time's horrid fardel
bruise your shoulders,
grinding you into the earth,
Get drunk and stay that way.
On what?
On wine, poetry, virtue, whatever.
But get drunk.
And if you sometimes happen to wake up
on the porches of a palace,
in the green grass of a ditch,
in the dismal loneliness of your own room,
your drunkenness gone or disappearing,
ask the wind,
the wave,
the star,
the bird,
the clock,
ask everything that flees,
everything that groans
or rolls
or sings,
everything that speaks,
ask what time it is;
and the wind,
the wave,
the star,
the bird,
the clock
will answer you:
"Time to get drunk!
Don't be martyred slaves of Time,
Get drunk!
Stay drunk!
 On wine, virtue, poetry, whatever!"

Friday, February 25, 2011

Looking back ---

“Its surprising how much of memory is built around things unnoticed at the time”
by Barbara Kingsolver

Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared 'neath the stars alone
For a moment all the world was right
How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye

garth brooks - the dance

Shawn | Myspace Video

Looking back reading the lyrics I think of so many perfect moment that I cherish in my life.. I have great humility in this I have gained and enriched my life and great pain for things and people I have lost or moved on...

Always in life for one reason or another I have always pondered people that walked into my life and walked out... I would always question and the toughest question would to be direct to my self... Ironically its funny how some things, songs and stuff becomes a reminder of somebody we know ? There are countless songs that are linked to people I know in my life. Some time its because they are their favorites or maybe that person gave me the song to listen or in a party somebody especially put that song or somebody was singing that song with heart and soul or when somebody use to have an obsession (still have) with a singer so or a song thats reflect a situation like you faced ... lol

Well this song is nice.. lots of meaning behind it

Next time check properly

Vadai has come to realize there is a difference between Nellikai (Indian gooseberry) & full bloomed fragipani especially looking at it via 6am MMS . Ampun maaf.... hahahahaha

BTW can you spot the difference

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Admiring Gianfranco Zola

I am a Kop, I love my team be it in good times and bad times, thru thick and thin that the team I love, that is the team I will be with till my dying day.

Sometimes when I look at football fans around I see idiots, its one thing to support your team but its a whole different world to chastise or hurl vulgarity at the opposing team and some of there are not only when children are present at the stadium but as restaurants and viewing parties. I got only one opinion about them. They are crap.

If you believe in the ideals of your club, you will behave in a manner that reflects the characteristics of your club. As much as I love my club you cant help but admire some of the players who have played for the opposing team that you would bow down as she show off their skills, or score amazing goals against your team or other teams and at time shake your head in disbelief.

Listening to the radio today, I could not believe this player was I down part of the Champions League Trophy Display roadshow. All it took for me was watching him on TV playing for 5 minute. I was in awe. I would rate him as the greatest player ever to wear the blue of CFC or even for West Ham. The man with the widest smile and shortest legs to have ever graced the EPL/BPL. The one and only Gianfranco Zola

Listening to his voice on the radio I am reminded of the kind of goals he would that would leave me as a Liverpool fan speechless.
  1. Like the back heel against Norwich
  2. Gianfranco Zola final Chelsea goal

"Any hero of a football club needs to produce moments which look almost super-human. When somebody’s best goal for a club comes in a fourth round FA Cup tie against Norwich City, you know it must have something special about it. Burnt in the memory of any football fan is the image of Zola gliding through the air, left leg outstretched, whilst his right foot deftly flicks the ball behind him into the Norwich goal. It became the most vivid image of Zola’s time at Chelsea, a pure depiction of genius and the kind of goal that needed several replays to even comprehend. "

Listening to him talk over the radio was a wonderful way to remember the little man's skill, and his ability to mesmerize and torture an opposition defense. Unlike some of today football so called super stars he was such a fantastic role model for youngsters, truly are up there with the greats. Zola's freekicks were breath taking... he remains to till today one of the greatest exponents of the direct, curling, swirling set-piece.

I ever doubt that a single fan from any of the opposing team would be able to muster a bad remark against him ..... A Perfect Gentleman footballer.. I do hope I get to see him this weekend

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Watch this is mind blowing

The cinematography is brilliant. BBC One at its very best.

Making choices

“Nobody ever did, or ever will, escape the consequences of his choices.”
Alfred A. Montapert

To start off I aint perfect, I have my my good my bad and my ugly. I like to say a mile in another shoes then you feel my passion, my pain and what make me tick.

When it comes to friendship or relationship I have had too many battle wounds, I carry my fair share of them. Why? I wish I knew, could it be coz I go into it with heart mind body and soul or that I been taught, of have learned thru life the value of all relationships be it friends or family.

At time when I look back at battle wounds analyze them why I still carry some venom against some of them, I am reminded as forgiving and as back-bending as I can b, there are at time I need to stand my ground.

There is a big difference between being thick headed and making a stand and at times when family was concern I have stood alone with no regret. Heck even I do stand alone at times but these are the decision and choices you make and you principal in standing by them.

Some fires are still burning lol

Recently I tried to find some closure on certain events in my life, its not an easy but I resolved that I need to find for I have carried that rage for far too long and enough was enough, I had the platform (although different from the one intended) and opportunity to meet talk and be civil. It help remove certain roadblock and allowed me to move forward. I told why I had that rage against that person, and why it is this long... to me the excuses presented now dun matter anymore and life goes on... while the care exist the trust will never be there. My 2 cents it is their loss.

Not to fault other, I have had to make tough personal choices in my life but I am glad I stood by them

Back to blogging

I had my fair share of false starts in blogging, sometimes I feel like I wanna blog and an idea start creeping in my head and its just that and end there.

I been guilty of not putting my thoughts and vents and rants into this blog but into other portals namely facebook.

I must change. There is a lot is a lot I wanna write and I have resolved that I must put it down in words. It is done for me by me.

To quote

Frederick Perls
I do my thing and you do yours. I am not in this world to live up to your expectations, and you are not in this world to live up to mine. You are you and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, then it is beautiful. If not, it can't be helped.