Looking back ---

“Its surprising how much of memory is built around things unnoticed at the time”
by Barbara Kingsolver

Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared 'neath the stars alone
For a moment all the world was right
How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye

garth brooks - the dance



Shawn | Myspace Video



Looking back reading the lyrics I think of so many perfect moment that I cherish in my life.. I have great humility in this I have gained and enriched my life and great pain for things and people I have lost or moved on...

Always in life for one reason or another I have always pondered people that walked into my life and walked out... I would always question and the toughest question would to be direct to my self... Ironically its funny how some things, songs and stuff becomes a reminder of somebody we know ? There are countless songs that are linked to people I know in my life. Some time its because they are their favorites or maybe that person gave me the song to listen or in a party somebody especially put that song or somebody was singing that song with heart and soul or when somebody use to have an obsession (still have) with a singer so or a song thats reflect a situation like you faced ... lol

Well this song is nice.. lots of meaning behind it

Next time check properly

Vadai has come to realize there is a difference between Nellikai (Indian gooseberry) & full bloomed fragipani especially looking at it via 6am MMS . Ampun maaf.... hahahahaha

BTW can you spot the difference

Admiring Gianfranco Zola

I am a Kop, I love my team be it in good times and bad times, thru thick and thin that the team I love, that is the team I will be with till my dying day.

Sometimes when I look at football fans around I see idiots, its one thing to support your team but its a whole different world to chastise or hurl vulgarity at the opposing team and some of there are not only when children are present at the stadium but as restaurants and viewing parties. I got only one opinion about them. They are crap.

If you believe in the ideals of your club, you will behave in a manner that reflects the characteristics of your club. As much as I love my club you cant help but admire some of the players who have played for the opposing team that you would bow down as she show off their skills, or score amazing goals against your team or other teams and at time shake your head in disbelief.

Listening to the radio today, I could not believe this player was I down part of the Champions League Trophy Display roadshow. All it took for me was watching him on TV playing for 5 minute. I was in awe. I would rate him as the greatest player ever to wear the blue of CFC or even for West Ham. The man with the widest smile and shortest legs to have ever graced the EPL/BPL. The one and only Gianfranco Zola

Listening to his voice on the radio I am reminded of the kind of goals he would that would leave me as a Liverpool fan speechless.

1. Like the back heel against Norwich
2. Gianfranco Zola final Chelsea goal

"Any hero of a football club needs to produce moments which look almost super-human. When somebody’s best goal for a club comes in a fourth round FA Cup tie against Norwich City, you know it must have something special about it. Burnt in the memory of any football fan is the image of Zola gliding through the air, left leg outstretched, whilst his right foot deftly flicks the ball behind him into the Norwich goal. It became the most vivid image of Zola’s time at Chelsea, a pure depiction of genius and the kind of goal that needed several replays to even comprehend. "


Listening to him talk over the radio was a wonderful way to remember the little man's skill, and his ability to mesmerize and torture an opposition defense. Unlike some of today football so called super stars he was such a fantastic role model for youngsters, truly are up there with the greats. Zola's freekicks were breath taking... he remains to till today one of the greatest exponents of the direct, curling, swirling set-piece.

I ever doubt that a single fan from any of the opposing team would be able to muster a bad remark against him ..... A Perfect Gentleman footballer.. I do hope I get to see him this weekend

Watch this is mind blowing

The cinematography is brilliant. BBC One at its very best.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2HiUMlOz4UQ&feature=player_popout

Making choices

“Nobody ever did, or ever will, escape the consequences of his choices.”
Alfred A. Montapert

To start off I aint perfect, I have my my good my bad and my ugly. I like to say a mile in another shoes then you feel my passion, my pain and what make me tick.

When it comes to friendship or relationship I have had too many battle wounds, I carry my fair share of them. Why? I wish I knew, could it be coz I go into it with heart mind body and soul or that I been taught, of have learned thru life the value of all relationships be it friends or family.

At time when I look back at battle wounds analyze them why I still carry some venom against some of them, I am reminded as forgiving and as back-bending as I can b, there are at time I need to stand my ground.

There is a big difference between being thick headed and making a stand and at times when family was concern I have stood alone with no regret. Heck even I do stand alone at times but these are the decision and choices you make and you principal in standing by them.

Some fires are still burning lol

Recently I tried to find some closure on certain events in my life, its not an easy but I resolved that I need to find for I have carried that rage for far too long and enough was enough, I had the platform (although different from the one intended) and opportunity to meet talk and be civil. It help remove certain roadblock and allowed me to move forward. I told why I had that rage against that person, and why it is this long... to me the excuses presented now dun matter anymore and life goes on... while the care exist the trust will never be there. My 2 cents it is their loss.


Not to fault other, I have had to make tough personal choices in my life but I am glad I stood by them

Back to blogging

I had my fair share of false starts in blogging, sometimes I feel like I wanna blog and an idea start creeping in my head and its just that and end there.

I been guilty of not putting my thoughts and vents and rants into this blog but into other portals namely facebook.

I must change. There is a lot is a lot I wanna write and I have resolved that I must put it down in words. It is done for me by me.


To quote

Frederick Perls
I do my thing and you do yours. I am not in this world to live up to your expectations, and you are not in this world to live up to mine. You are you and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, then it is beautiful. If not, it can't be helped.

20th Malaysian Hockey Federation BGM

The BGM is today where officials will be appointed for a 4 year term has its good and bad coz even at the present 2 year team many officials do not attend meeting.

ELECTION RESULTS UPDATED 1.30pm

TOTAL 37 Eligible to Vote

President :KDYTM Tengku Abdullah Al Haj Ibni Sultan Haji Ahmad Shah (unopposed)

Deputy President :
Nur Azmi 14 votes winner
Abdul Hadi 1 vote
Tengku Majid 11 votes
Dr.Cheema 10 votes


Vice President:
1. M.Gobinathan 25 votes
2. Dato Sri Che Khalid Mohd Noh 29 votes
3. Dato Haji Abdul Rahim 26 votes
4. Ow Soon Kooi 11 votes
5. Mohindar Singh 5 votes
6. Abdul Rahim Hj Ahmad 5 votes
7. Manjit Singh 18 votes

8. Dato Yusop Sabah Rep - Automatic Seat
9. Dato Hj Bustari Yusof Sarawak Rep - Automatic Seat

yin and yang

"The thing that separates humans from all other animals is our ability to view the world in the past, present and future. This ability allows us to learn from our past mistakes, progress in the present and imagine the future. I dont know of any other animal that thinks about tomorrow."

The come back to that would be we are the only animal that kills our own lol

there goes my thumb@!!

well well age is catching I think or I am not taking care of my self like I should... I have got De Quervain's tenosynovitis aka washerwoman's sprain, is a painful wrist condition involving two of the tendons at the wrist - the thumb extensors called Extensor pollicus brevis and abductor pollicus longus at the base of the thumb. - A common cause today in the technology age is typing on handheld devices, which has led to the condition being dubbed "Blackberry Thumb"

Being Critical

Anton Ego: In many ways, the work of a critic is easy. We risk very little yet enjoy a position over those who offer up their work and their selves to our judgment. We thrive on negative criticism, which is fun to write and to read. But the bitter truth we critics must face, is that in the grand scheme of things, the average piece of junk is probably more meaningful than our criticism designating it so. But there are times when a critic truly risks something, and that is in the discovery and defense of the new. The world is often unkind to new talent, new creations, the new needs friends...



I am critical not a bitch or a bastard but I ask the question that need to be asked and if it makes me unpopular so be it.

I love sports, I love my friends and I love my son to each I have a degree of leniency and bending over to accept. We live our lives by principals, goals, rules and what ever that makes us sleep peacefully at night.

I am entrusted to a position that required my to perform in sports, no salary but I do it for the love of the game. I always said look I am here for two years, as long I am here for two years , I will kick butt and do my job even if it mean stepping on kiss asses and seat warmers. I am proud to say I fought and I have done so. I am not afraid to be critical and not afraid of accepting critism just look me in my eye and say it to my face.

I am surprised that other sports have looked at me and my capabilities and invited me to come over to help them.. its a bridge I think of crossing, no matter what the repercussion coz I leave it all on the table. I always tell them my services are free just match the "burning desire" I bring to it even if it only 50%

My friends, I welcome all as my friends, I dun judge by race, creed and especially the size of their wallets, people have come and gone in my life, I say its their loss coz I am true to my friends and I work extra hard at keeping friendship alive.... Its a knife that cuts both ways still for a friend I will help asking nothing in return. I do not pretend to be someone else what you see is what you get its just a matter of acceptance instead of pretending to be a friend

My son.. what can I say, he is my 'kwan' managing a growing kid with the present circumstance is never easy, its more draining at the same time rewarding then any other relationship i have been in, being pulled in 10 different direction at once and then he smiles...

for the time being ...

...I am Taking a break......

Eight-a-side hockey meet limited to 32 teams

Eight-a-side hockey meet limited to 32 teams


Clock is ticking

Lullaby (Goodnight, My Angel) - Billy Joel

you got to feel this

Shamans Harvest feat. Downstait - Broken Dreams (Drew McIntyre´s Theme)

Cruel as it seems you never hear the SHOT that takes you down.

When you get shot like that it least expected it hurts

What’s that metronome I hear, perhaps the end is drawing near
You never hear the shot that takes you down
Now your dream’s a memory, and seems more true from far away
Just like smoke that fades and makes no sound
Out of time, so say goodbye

What was yours, now is mine
I dream broken dreams, I make them come true
I make them for you
I make them for you

Almost to the mountain top, you slip and fall just like a stone
Rolling ever faster to this nightmare you have sown
You had it all right in your grasp, but in a breath your minute passed
Now, at last, the end has come, you are all alone

Out of time, so say goodbye
What was yours, now is mine
I dream broken dreams, I make them come true
I make them for you
I make them for you

All your dreams are just illusion
Based on nothing and confusion
Don’t you look behind the curtain
No more time, the end is certain

Holding out for something you had dreamt about for years and years
Each day thinking tomorrow was the one
A train somewhere is off it’s tracks, it’s whistle blows, it wants life back
And echoes through a night of setting suns

Out of time, so say goodbye
The dream was yours, but now is mine

I dream broken dreams, I make them come true
I make them for you
I make them for you

Selangor U-16 - We did it

As Hiro Nakamura would say

YATTA!!!

“All that's necessary for the forces of evil to win in the world is for enough good men to do nothing.” Edmund Burke (1729-01-12 – 1797-07-09) was an Irish political philosopher, Whig politician, and statesman; he is regarded by many as the "father" of modern conservatism.

Following up to my previous blog http://darthvadai.blogspot.com/2010/03/hockey-better-devil-you-know-than-devil.html where I spoke about the frustration of people not wanting to help and more over people wanting to sabotage.
I was delighted that the Selangor Under 16 team achieved its primary target.
For a team what finished 8th in 2008, did not qualify for the semis at 2009 it is a great achievement to get to where we are.

We play Perak in the semis a power house, whatever the result it be a bonus for not we are satisfied with this

The people who did nothing I sure hope they dun show up in the batiks and coats when I toast to this team. It is time people realize you can be part of a system that's trying to move froward and do nothing.

Hockey : 'better the devil you know than the devil you don't'

Basically it means that it is often better to deal with someone or something you are familiar with and know, even if they are not ideal, than take a risk with an unknown person or thing.

In any organization people need to step up, step forward, its not easy trying to find people who can do the job. People are afraid for committing and where I come from, I am saddled with various kind of people. There are people who are representatives, elected or appointed to administer the affairs. Each and everyone practically have a family to run, a house to feed, a job to do and up and above that a commitment to perform to the position we are elected to or appointed to or in the worse case scenario appointed to.

When there is a dereliction of that duty, you get 3 kinds of people
i) the "huh" what happen
ii) the "yes ah" then then then
iii) Not my problem

So I work with the angles and devils, measure what need to be done and in 10 days we put together a package, a team, with the budgets, equipment, selection, coaches the whole works and sent them to a tournament. With it the hopes of the 2 people left behind who worked their heart out to ensure they got to their destination and a silent prayer to reach their target. A semifinal appearance.

I will tell you who was the team was on the ground, one private sector person, one school teacher with a love for the game, a pair of coaches who worked thru the difficulties and 2 other teachers who had the courage to step into the vacant seats of the Manager & Asst. Manager and take the team there.

I mean lets weigh the facts , a state team is going for a National Tournament, no one is bothered to prepare a team, to set team up, to call players to come. So when I and my team of rag tag bunch of people who want to see a team participate got them there.

Countless day and nights working with the national body for the players flight tickets, the state sports council preparing budgets lobbying, gaining their trust and belief. Each step was systematically document and a lot of the dirty tricks pulled against us was shielded away from the Team. They could ill afford the distraction

The people I worked with had good and bad but we focused on what was the overall goal. It was not easy to get to where we are not, we had people withing the organization working against us, not to bitch about them but I rather have them in my face then to do it from the confines of mouse hole.

We are not an rich organization we are managing our debts but when the people your own organization lobby not to give the facilities to train the team and having to fork out cash from your own pocket to ensure players get the entry into the stadium to train leads me to a war path.

At least the devils I had with me could work and get the job done.

I was laughed at when I said the target of the team was the semifinals, but you dont just pluck those figures from thin air... Having failed to qualify for the semifinals in 2009 and further marred by misconduct by officials and in 2008 we finished a poor 8th position. A semifinals position is a lot to shout about by my Team.

http://thestar.com.my/metro/story.asp?file=/2010/3/11/central/5816361&sec=central

In 24 hours, we stand on the threshold of an opportunity to qualify for the semifinals of an age group tournament that we have failed to qualify. We have done all the right thing. We lot to the last year champions 2-1. We drew with the 3rd places team from last year. Both these team utilized sport school boys from their respective states. We won the rest of the round robbin.

We stand at 13 points out of 6 games, a + 11 goal difference and await the outcome of a last league game where the 3rd placed team from last year MUST win by a 6 goal margin and if they fail to do so I be dancing!!!


We shall know in 24 hours

Recovery

Well I have been ill... nothing life threatening but and energy sapping, numbing viral fever and with that strain and what not that has been happening with the reorganization at work and battles in Hockey especially in the way we operate and conduct ourselves and the icing on the cake my "jalopy" not available till the 20th has left me tight, tensed and lack of time to blog.


I also been distracted by my posting in my facebook page.

My birthday came and went and a decade is gone you tend to realize as the years go by you still are fighting to be better each day, stronger, and morally right.

I had a great time taking Junior Vadai to Aquaria and we had lots of fun there

MHL - my two cents

Its never an easy task doing what they in MHL is doing. not many months ago I walked along similar lines trying to do the same. Its never an easy mountain to climb, getting teams, publicity, press releases its a thankless job to the finish line. As I sat in the usual corner watching some of the matches I notice two things

1. People trying to work and make something happen
2. People trying to find fault with every single attempt

Congratulations are in order to the team that ran MHL. They dare to break out of the mold and try new things, new directions in the face of challenges and criticism and the possibility of mistakes that may happen. Its a huge.. HUGE step form the same old dour year to year league.

Public perception of the sport, of the league are not going to change in one season, but it lifted it up a notch. The national team being where they are aint gonna be helpful. Every sport popularity depends on the success of the national team. We do not have to look any futher then national soccer team is a prime example, what they U23 team did galvanized the sport over the short term. Suddenly everyone is talking about it.

When is the last time we saw hockey... local hockey on Astro. When was the last time you saw hockey in your home town (if you are outside of KL) ? Along side this "out of kl" roadshow there was a lot of side line activities for development. Yes, TNB was a catalyst to this.

For the teams, as I read the morning paper there were accolades and brickbats but a few comments stood out. Tenaga coach Manjit Singh attributed their success to the way “we take care of our players’ welfare”. A crucial statement that is sorely lacking in hockey these days. Teams like Maybank, Tenaga and others likes them part of the CSR and love for the game have continues year in and year out to build on this. Other corporate organization , like Pos Malaysia, PKNS, Petronas and other large organization must be encouraged along the same lines.

State affiliates have also contributed to the decline ofthe National League. The failure to have a simple league. May be the MHF should look at arm twisting, encouraging, demanding what ever the lingo maybe for state to have a league. Of course money is always the issue, but it does not mean we stop playing, the affiliates do not realize the domino effect they are apart of that has lead to the decline of the hockey in this country.

While there are complaints and cries and all what not I have yet to see a state come up to the plate and say, HELP US. All it takes is for each state to run a league, complete one, then move on to the next and the next over the long term over a synchronized calendar both locally and nationals you have success knocking on your door. Soon these teams will graduate to the bigger playing platform.

When people do not play, when there is no playing opportunity we will fail and trust me we are not far from that.

To the MHL Team, this is you moment in the sun, bask in its glory, but please have a book called lesson learned so you can write in them and move forward.

Well done

Snow Patrol - Just Say Yes

Sometimes you only need to say YES

New Super Bowl Champs

gosh the amount of stories they gonna write about this one

Saints win Super Bowl XLIV 31 - 17!!!

For the Record I am an New York Giants fan

Superbowl XLIV between the Saints and Colts
http://www.nfl.com/videos/nfl-game-previews/09000d5d8160ce32/Super-Bowl-XLIV-preview


In the end .."This is one of the beautiful things about sports. They just won't p lay out like you expect. This game was supposed to be a high-scoring free-for-all. This game was supposed to go to Indianapolis ... especially after they took the 10-0 early lead. This game was supposed to come down to the brilliance of Peyton Manning. And instead, the Saints came up with a gutsy game plan, a tough defensive scheme, and a huge interception of Peyton Manning himself. It's a great win for the Saints and the city of New Orleans."

In summary the chant from the Saints

“Who dat say dey gonna beat dem Saints”.

his win is not for me. It's for the city of New Orleans, the state of Lousiana, the fans that lined the roads after every game cheering on the team. This is a win for heart, emotion, and comebacks. The comeback city of America is New Orleans. Honestly, there are no losers in this game. But in this Super Bowl, this trophy, this title, mean s so much more than just words and a metal block. Cue music. End scene.

WHO DAT?

Final score: Colts 17 - 31 Saints

Never underestimate the power of emotion... and talent.

MIAMI -- Who are 'dese Super Bowl champions?

A team that spent most of their 43 years of existence as consummate losers and were almost driven out of New Orleans forever by a hurricane that had the owner looking for new homes from San Antonio to Los Angeles.

Meet Drew Brees and the New Orleans Saints, who lit up their city and most of the nation with a 31-17 upset Sunday of the Indianapolis Colts.