life is like a box of chocolated....time to get my point across.... have frens that blog and I think to myself if its just an in thingy or just evolution...so here I am.... putting my voice across.."holler!!!" if ya can hear me
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Fucking Big Fish
Movies I wanna watch (hopefully) in 2007
Harry Potter and the Order Of The Phoenix | July 13, 2007 |
Spider-Man 3 | May 04, 2007 |
Pirates of the Caribbean: At World Ends | May 25, 2007 |
Shrek The Third | May 18, 2007 |
Fantastic Four: Rise of The Silver Surfer | June 15, 2007 |
The Bourne Ultimatum | August 03, 2007 |
Ocean's Thirteen | June 08, 2007 |
Alien vs. Predator: Survival Of The Fittest | December 21, 2007 |
Dodgeball 2 | TBA 2007 |
Meet the Little Focker | TBA 2007 |
The Simpsons Movie | July 27, 2007 |
Wolverine | TBA 2007 |
Mr. Bean Holiday Movie | September 28, 2007 |
Transformers | July 04, 2007 |
Harold and Kumar Go to Amsterdam | TBA 2007 |
Austin Powers 4 | TBA 2007 |
Wonder Woman | TBA 2007 |
Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles | March 30, 2007 |
Glorious Bak Kut Teh
I been living in KL now for a while always scouting for a nice place to makan...so when I was out with my kaki and the family.. the comedy was the wifey knew where the shop was but not how to get there. Blur max.... wat the heck all for the sake of good food... what else but Bak kut teh, yummy!!!!
Now this is a dish of pork bone soup commonly found like almost every where but good ones are hard I repeat HARD to find.... I could eat it almost any time of the day, but usually la its early in the morning or very late at night after a big session. You can makan with rice, i-chak-kueh
Most of he place I go to the BKT watery, like not rich and bones and dump a load of vegetables lke I am ordering a vegetarian dish
Till I found this place... you want to know where take me and go hahahaha
Want to know how good it is ah.... see the little girl drinking from the bowl then u faham la how slurrrppppp it is
Me and My beer
So here is the list of beer glasses....and the purpose
Flute
Tall, thin, footed with a short stem, often gold-rimmed. These glasses are delicate, and show off a beer’s lean, sparkling body. This makes them inappropriate for heavy, murky beers, but perfect for light, sparkling beers such as fruit lambics and north German pilsners.
Lager glass
Short glasses, holding no more than 12 oz of beer. The are slightly wider at the mouth than at the foot, with gradual, evenly sloping sides. This unpretentious glass is a great basic drinking vessel, well-suited to pale lagers such as American standards, dortmunders, and helles. Lighter Vienna, American darks, cream ales and mainstream golden ales are also fine in this blue collar glass.
Kölsch/Altbier
Similar to the Lager glass, with straight-sided, and generally a little bit smaller. The Kölsch glass in particular has a revolver-type look when six of them are crowded onto a server’s tray. These are designed to be drained in a couple of gulps, which is a good way to drink an Alt or Kölsch once you’ve written your notes. Alt glasses are slightly shorter and fatter than the Kölsch glasses. Both allow for billowing heads to form, but are kind of lousy for developing aroma or discerning subtleties, which is a shame when you’re sitting in Im Füchschen trying to wrap your head around their glorious brew.
Shaker
The American microbrewer’s standard. A gently sloped 16 oz. glass made for session-type beers. Ambers, English & American pales, and sometimes darker session ales are typically served in these glasses, which are better known for their durability, than for any particularly beneficial properties. It is for that reason that some beer geeks have developed a hatred of the shaker.
English pint
These have a similar purpose to the shaker in that they are made for session ales, in this case bitters, milds, porters and stouts. There are a couple of key differences. First, they pour a proper pint (and usually have a line indicating where that is on the glass, just to make sure you don’t get ripped off). Second, they have a bit more flourish than the bland shaker. There are basically two variations. The first has a gentle curve covering the upper 2/3 of the glass - Guinness uses these. The second has a straight slope for the bottom two-thirds, and then a bump near the top, flattening out at the mouth of the glass.
Dimpled mug
A classic in North America, the dimpled mug is a large mug, with dimples, and a handle. It is convex, with the mouth larger than the base. The glass is thick, so bar owners love it. While the dimples make appreciating the appearance of the beer more difficult, the wide mouth releases the aroma just nicely. So while these mugs are most commonly used for raunchy lagers, I would recommend them more for aromatic brown ales (especially the hazy ones), bocks and other dark lagers.
Stein
By far the most ornate beer vessels are the Bavarian steins. These are usually ceramic, earthenware or stoneware, and are intricately decorated with scenes of nature, castles, and villages. They come in a variety of sizes, usually 1/2L, 1L, or 2L - the preferred portions of Bavarian drinkers. While steins do nothing for the appearance of the beer, there is little question that these beautiful pieces of folk art (even if they are made in a factory, they’re still pretty nice) are visually appealing unto themselves. The aromatic aspect is admittedly not as strong from these materials as from glass, but the taste is unencumbered. Thankfully, some steins have lids, which you can use to trap aromas in so that when you open the lid you get a big shot of malt (or smoke, if you are drinking rauchbier). The added bonus of the lid is that you keep blackflies and mosquitoes out of your Molson if you’re camping, and the cigarette smoke out if you’re in a low-ceilinged cellar bar in Germany. Use for any traditional German lager style.
Footed Pilsner
A small, almost straight-sided glass sits on an inch-long stem and foot. The basest form of this glass is actually kind of dull, but thankfully brewers like Christoffel have added tulipesque accents to liven things up. The basic footed pilsner has a slightly bulbous bottom and narrower mouth, which makes it better for drinking than for smelling, and places the most emphasis on the appearance. It has a bit more style than some other glasses, so it is best used for pilsners, and decent cream or golden ales than for the lowliest lagers.
Tulip
The most varied glass in the world of beer. This style of glass has been around a while but only recently has found in a home in the eyes of beer-lovers the world over. It is the ultimate beer-tasting utility glass. The bulbous bottom makes for great drinking, the flared mouth allows for wonderful head formation and aroma release, and while it is short enough to handle the biggest beer styles, it is tall enough to service IPAs and other complex session beers. The Duvel glass is a well-known variant of the tulip style, and the Ratebeer tasting glass is an almost perfect example.
Thistle
A somewhat obscure glass, used by the Belgians for scotch ales. It is a footed glass, with a short stem. The glass starts very bulbous, as though it were a snifter, but then the upper half has straight sides that angle outwards. The mouth is basically the same radius at the bulb at the bottom. While it has a funky look to it, I’m not really sure what benefits it brings to the table otherwise - the funny shape I think would make drinking almost awkward, while the mouth is not wide enough to provide ample aroma.
Yard of Ale
In some ways, this is merely an elongated version of the thimble. True, is has no foot nor stem, but is consists of a bulb followed by a long, thin, outwardly sloping section, which in this case flattens out at the end. Originally, these were passed to stagecoach drivers so that they could stop for a drink without giving up the reigns (thus, the world’s first drive-through was an inn somewhere in Industrial Revolution England). Because the bottom is both bulbous and stemless, it will not stand on its own, and requires a wooden stand. The best-known branded example if Pauwel Kwak.
Weizen
The classic German wheat beer glass is tall, narrow and flared at the top. This design accentuates both the hazy appearance of a classic hefeweizen, but also allows for abundant head formation. They typically hold 1/2L of beer. The one drawback to these glasses is that with so much glass exposed to the atmosphere, the beer warms more quickly than one might like on a hot summer’s day.
Tumbler
Best known as "the Hoegaarden glass", tumblers are session glasses with a very gentle straight slope, though the Hoegaarden glass itself has a wider bowl at the top of the glass. These graceless glasses are used for witbiers to highlight the hard-working farm origins of the style. To the amazement of North Americans, they are also used in Belgium for gueuze. We should all be so lucky as to have gueuze and lambic as local, working class session brews!
Bowl
Used for berliner weissebier, the bowl is a low-slung, wide glass that you could very much each muesli and yoghurt out of. This glass is all style, but works well with the berliner weisse when that style is adulterated by the woodruff or raspberry syrup. Then it is practically an alcopop, and such an absurb drinking vessel makes sense. Jackson’s Ultimate Beer book shows the berliner weissebiers in a stemmed version of the bowl (almost a bolleke, which is really a cross between a bowl and a Trappist glass), and the additional elegance of the stem seems to fit well a berliner weisse taken neat.
Trappist glass
Bowl glasses with feet and long stems, Trappist glasses work well with the complex abbey ales they are designed for. First, they have very wide mouths, which allows the copious foam to develop without getting too thick for proper drinking. These wide mouths allow the complex aromas of abbey ales to fully realize. The deep bowl shows off the liquid well, and makes even the murkiest Rochefort look damn fine.
Stem glasses
Surprisingly common, yet unknown style. These are typically shorter, smaller with stems and the glass portion is slightly off-straight in its trajectory. They usually have some convexity, but not much. Occasionally, they are dead straight, with rounded bottoms to form basically a square. Celebrator and Harvey Porter use these types of glasses.
Snifter
Whether a pure brandy snifter or a variant, these are used most commonly for barley wines, eisbocks and imperial stouts. They are stemmed and footed, bulbous at the bottom and narrowing all the way to the top. Because barley wines often have little head formation, the narrow mouth is fine as far as that goes, but still inhibits aroma a little bit, the tradeoff being the appearance of elegance. Many snifter variants made for beers have wider-than-average mouths for this reason.
The Office Party
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Plans for the week
hmmmmm got date with the auditor and an invite to Conlay club
Wed
Badminton or dating Com serving food for Thaipusam at Batu Caves
Thur
same la like wed
Fri
Open for now maybe recovery
Sat
Me and Commie going Marie place. (Finally and where is my "The Usual Suspects)
Sun
no plan
Retrospect : Vadai
I have gone thru life at work, with friends, with family and relationships some successful some failed some crashed and burn, some tore me apart, and some that I hurt (true), but I realise that life does go on. There is always tomorrow with or without the people in you life.
It is what you do when you have to do, without people knowing is what makes you. One does not need to advertise to the world when he does but only to himself, even to those who are close to him. I use to be very open at one stage in my life thinking that was the way to go but it does not work in every environment. True there may be situations being open is warranted but in the end if is the choice of the individual not the the people around him.
This month I watched 3 people I looked up to celebrate milestones in their life, I listen to accolades spoken of them, their pain and their tears. I look at mine and say I done good. I could be worse but I am contended where I am now. I look back at what I have done for my family and extended family, my friends and my extended friends, I feel I am on top. Heck I am no angel either. I am what I am.
As they say what that does not break us only makes us stronger.
Few things are certain, I be where I am so long as I want to be there. Not because of the people who surround me or the people who drove me here. If I need to move, I will, an action I have remonstrated in recent time. I have look at option of moving in with a buddy of mine also... I cross that bridge when I come to it. I wont get married again that chapter is closed. Will I see other non exclusively? Yeah! My philosophy is life is meant to be lived. I will like apples and oranges and banana and papaya and durian but there is a time for everything.
In the end, the thing that matter to me will always be Jnr Vadai. I will live my life the way it should be lived, and no fren, family or stranger is gonna sit me down and try to have an awakening with me (lol). Wont work lol
These is my thoughts and opinions
Monday, January 29, 2007
Flying
Management I slam dunked the procedured and forms without a voice from the Management
Web page was upgraded without a hitch and it was rocking and the only hitch is we got more new brands
Secured the printers and laptops for the office.
Slam Dunked the auditors
Fustal - what can I say. I scored Booooya!!!! Jen Scored booya!! Let me gloat a while.. a beauty of a goal in my own half close to my circle on the left.... building the game (still gloating) score 1-1.. see Jen at the far right torn between floating a chip for the panjang to head in or the corner pocket... in all honesty (fuck yes I am honest in my blog) I floated it in and when i raised my head to look at Jen at the ball it sail so so so so so (mega gloating) smooth, the keeper beaten (mega) into the top corner to seal the win. My fist in the air (huuuurah)
We had a fucking awesome session (pity I had to run away at 9pm), 2 old dogs (me and Jen) one Man U freak, a kido wet behind the eats and a freaking mad left back who in all honesty was an awesome keeper (sorry Jen)
We put the better playing team to shame, considering the line up, we stayed longer on that court then anyone else, defending with HEART (Kop) and scoring off one touch passes and flashes of brilliance
Vadai rocked the house
Sang all the way home after a quick 9.10pm appointment
Treated my self to 2 shots, watched Lost... help a fren and now I am going to bed glowing. Who need sex? (mega bluff)
Sunday, January 28, 2007
Sunday 11.55pm
- Had Bak Kut the with a fren and his family,
- Became an uncle
- Broke free and made new friends
- Sent an Uncle to celebrate his 60th Bday to see Boys II Men (no crime in that for not considering others)
- It was nice to sound of people who are with you without having to keep it in
- Was at work on Sunday preparing ground work for a role I am to undertake
- Most precious of all, Jnr Vadai was with me
The coming week will be a stiff week, management meeting, getting in shape, finding motivation and direction.
I was watching a VCD of the Guardian and this is a quote that is most...most...most appropriate to express my thoughts
Maggie McGlone: If my muscles hurt, it just means I've used them. If it hurts to walk up the stairs, it's just cause I've done it a hundred times to lay down next to a man who loved me. My face may have wrinkles, but I have laid under hundreds of skies on sunny days. I look like this, well, because I drank and I smoked and I lived and I loved and I screwed my way through a pretty damn good life. Getting old isn't bad. It's earned.
I earned it this weekedn and I am gonna keep it
Friday, January 26, 2007
Nice versus Nasty
When with guys, its different, you could screw them, fuck them and then get on back to the environment your in, (this is not a ladies bashing session) but honestly with members of the opposite sex aint as simple as that, words used, texture, language need to be carefully structured. Sometimes I think to heck with it and lay it bare, say what there is to say and let the cards fall where they are.
We cant be nice always, time to look out for myself
Becoming an 'Uncle'
Makcik yang you kata itu this weekend tak boleh
Dun know if boy or girl..... Well, as an uncle your duties are endless. You should be the first to teach the child to swear, give the child it's first cigarette, and if it's a girl, beat up it's first boyfriend for fucking around with her. Remember, don't discipline the child, that's what parents are for. Instead, just let it enjoy the more relaxing things in life, there's many a joy to be had helping the child do it's first bucket. wakaakakakkaaka
I love babies... excited
Thursday, January 25, 2007
Movie
(for the rest this aint compensation lol)
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Mentally Tired
My escape, probably a dip in the pool. A chat with a fren a or a nice hug...
Gonna take Jnr away and wrestle him in the pool, hopefully this weekend in KL just me and him.
Parting words we all got dark closets which other should not pry. The skill is knowing when to stay away, the stupidity is the opposite and even more stupid is trying to make a statement out of it.
Promises we make
I doubt it, if you can good on you. Today promises are a pale comparison of what the meaning stood for in generations before. In Jerry Maguire..Matt Cushman: [to Jerry] What you do have is my whole word, and it's stronger than oak. [shakes Jerry's hand]
When someone gives their word it stood for everything (in the movie Jerry got screwed la), in retrospect today promises are less in value. We just make them out of necessity, convenience, possibility, satisfaction, or for the sake la.
Some promises are binding. I got 4 to my mom that I would keep. Not coz I am forced to but have to, I was asked to. I gave them my word. I keep my word especially to them. Too bad we can share all our promises and we lead out lives directly and indirectly because of that. At time when people are bearing down on you, you wish you could tell the whole world the promise you made, but Promises are private. Never to be shared.
Being Concern
An instance, I received an sms from a 3rd party that a distant fren (last time close fren), was having lower tummy pains. Further to the fact she was pregnant and have not kept in touch for sometime and we kind of grown apart and yada, yada, yada its not a crime to express concern.
I could bitch about oh why I was not ..... or you dont...... or ...... in the end despite all that but I am not like that. Like I said its not a crime
A few well placed sms to enquire of the health, condition resulted in the knowledge of her being admitted, prep for surgery in the evening for acute appendicitis. All I said keep me in the loop and hope the mum and the baby is well.
Too bad some people see a glass help full when some see it half empty. Thats their right
The oak and daisy
Monday, January 22, 2007
10 things you did not know
It is always possible to park directly outside any building you are visiting.
A detective can only solve a case once he has been suspended from duty.
If you decide to start dancing in the street, everyone you bump into will know all the steps.
Most laptop computers are powerful enough to override the communication systems of any invading alien civilization.
It does not matter if you are heavily outnumbered in a fight involving martial arts - your enemies will wait patiently to attack you one by one by dancing around in a threatening manner until you have knocked out their predecessors.
No one involved in a car chase, hijacking, explosion, volcanic eruption or alien invasion will ever go into shock.
When they are alone, all foreigners prefer to speak English to each other.
You can always find a chainsaw when you need one.
Any lock can be picked by a credit card or a paper clip in seconds, unless it's the door to a burning building with a child trapped inside.
Television news bulletins usually contain a story that affects you personally at that precise moment you turn the television on.
Boyz II Men Live In Concert
Date 26 & 27 January 2007 (Friday & Saturday)
Time 8.00pm Venue Arena of Stars, Genting
One of the best that I like (aside from the above of course) 4 seasons.
Boyz II Men - 4 Seasons Of Loneliness
I long for the warmth of days gone by
When you were mine
But now those days are memories in time
Life's empty without you by my side
My heart belongs to you
No matter what I try
When I get courage up to love somebody new
It always falls apart 'cause they just
Can't compare to you
You love won't release me
I'm bound under ball and chain
Reminiscing our love as I watch four season's change
Chorus:
In comes the winter breeze
That chills the air and drifts the snow
And I imagine kissing you under the mistletoe
When springtime makes its way here
Lilac blooms reminds me of the scent of your perfume
When summer burns with heat
I always get the hots for you
Go skinny dippin' in the ocean where we used to do
When autumn sheds the leaves the trees are bare
When you're not here it doesn't feel the same
Remember the nights when we closed our eyes
And vowed that you and I would be in love for all time
Anytime I think about these things is shared with you
I break down and cry 'cause I get so emotional
Until you release me I'm bound under ball and chain
Reminiscing our love as I watch four seasons change
Chorus
This loneliness
Has crushed my heart
Please let me love again
'Cause I need your love to comfort me and ease my pain
Or four seasons will bring the loneliness again
Chorus
I have 3 passes for it and I thought it be a great present for my uncle who birthday just passed, what a nice free gesture. Since having new acquaintences I been getitng invited for performances and concerts , not often, some are performers who are not my cup of tea.
Scuddies is a souce for me for movies thought lately I not hang out wiht him much.
Anyway if I get any more concert tickets I know who to dish them out to
Good monday
Petronas licensing needs to be complete
4 PO needs to be release to the principals
2 laptops need to be procured and set up
Why am I in good spirits?
I got the sari that I wanted
Man U lost, Kops won and at the EPL table, the top 4 is saperated by 11 pts, Kops and Man U 9 pts with 14 matches to go. Meaning opportunities lie a head.
Can we steal the crown? Can we go on a streak?
Well there is hope so we can dream?
Happy Birthday Mom!!
So for the past few days I've been thinking, what separate them? I've only come to one conclusion, there is no easy way to define the difference between a "good mom" and "great mom." Every woman is different. Each has her own set of inherited parenting skills, abilities and talents which enables her to be as good as parent as she can be.
I have always advocated the fact most parents strive to raise their children better than their parents raised them. In because of natural evolution in our culture and environment, parenting can always be improved upon. That will never change, so it seems senseless to strive for perfection - it simply can't be achieved.
From the web
# A good mom puts Band-Aids on your boo-boos, a great mom eases your pain.
# A good mom helps you with your homework, a great mom guides you through the process of helping yourself.
# A good mom helps to mend your torn clothes, a great mom helps to mend your broken heart.
A got a mom and she turns 70.
The has her ups and down in life, struggles to raise 2 kids who are damm proud of her
Cheers
Sunday, January 21, 2007
Point of No Return
Thru our lives both as an individual and as a collective we are often faced with this barrier. Why do I call it a barrier? Coz once you step thru it, thing will never be the same. No matter at a working environment, family, or friends, some point in time you stop trying and make a move. Such a move big or small will have a telling effect.
Me hmmm I guess I am on a roll coz I have had that "point of no return" situation more then my fingers can count... I been to the ferries wheel and on the roller coaster but I have stuck to my guns. That I can be proud of. I have ridiculed, used, heckled, criticized, insulted by people who think they know the whole story. Typical human behavior. Recently I was proven right for the trust I had placed. Babbling again,
Even now, my priorities are the same when I set out to do what I had to to a few years back. Nothings changed... the challenges of life still remain, the people out there still remain in the end only one matters Jnr Vadai. The rest will come and go as crudely put, BY-products or 2nd onwards on the list
Kop End says : COURAGE
Courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear - not absence of fear. Except a creature be part coward it is not a compliment to say it is brave. ~Mark Twain, Pudd'nhead Wilson's Calendar, 1894
I am on a high(not like I got laid thru the whole weekend), back in my home this morning beeming, rejoicing and celebrating with milo ais and kopi 'o'o ais over a display of courage by my Team. Who?
Why? Look at this head line...
Liverpool 2-0 Chelsea: Blues blown away
Liverpool Rattle Title Chase
Liverpool rock Chelsea title dreamMy 2 cents
It was not Chelsea at its best neither were they at their worst. I wont rant on Chelsea but on my KOPs, after humiliating defeats at Gunner's hands at Cup matches backs to the wall. They should why I am still proud of them they had COURAGE. Worst defeat in decades, poor display of the team in 2 cup matches spelled doom. Heck the score could have been 5-0. Before the start of the match I could not have predicted 2-0 scoreline. Why? I am realistic.
Looking at the line up, Chec was back. Essien was in center back and the Blues plays 4-3-3 wiht Kalou and Robber and deadly Dogbra. Hypia was out, Agger was in the center. Riise was left midfield.. Bellamy was on the bench.
From the 1st minute the fought, they chased, they double team and tackled with conviction. You could not see Blues stringing passes but you could see Kop flowing. From Kop end to the other side it was magic. Courage!!!
Hard to pick my man of the match but Jamie Carragher, making his 450th appearance for Liverpool was all about courage and it is he I pick. I bow to Kyut.
This is one game out of 40 matches. It wont win them the title but it shows they have Courage
Thursday, January 18, 2007
Stone Temple Pilots - Plush (acoustic Version)
[spoken]
This is a song called plush...
And I feel that time's a wasted go
So where ya going to tomorrow?
And I see that these are lies to come
Would you even care?
And I feel it
And I feel it
Where ya going to tomorrow?
Where ya going with that mask I found?
And I feel, and I feel
When the dogs begin to smell her
Will she smell alone?
And I feel, so much depends on the weather
So is it raining in your bedroom?
And I see, that these are the eyes of disarray
Would you even care?
And I feel it
And she feels it
Where ya going to tomorrow?
Where ya going with that mask I found?
And I feel, and I feel
When the dogs begin to smell her
Will she smell alone?
When the dogs do find her
Got time, time, to wait for tomorrow
This song is about your significant other lying to you all along and finally you dicovering the truth, "Where ya going with that mask I found?".
it's a song about learning to live without someone and wondering if they'll be able to live without you... i love it... it's beautifully written and the acoutic version is just awesome
Something
I used to read in amusement the usual advise columns that dish them out usually found in weekend column. Why? Seem to have a practical solution for almost (not all) situation.In reality its not possible. You cant consciously know the exact environment, the character of the person, the situation they are in, the ramifications and most importantly their mindset and especially when you don't know the person.
(This is gonna sting a few people)
Do not offer advise when people dun ask. Makes you look stupid then minute you advise is not required dont be a hero coz that will make you unwanted. If you still presist, might as well dig your own grace.
You can never know someone well enough, you may know what they choose to reveal of themselves and their characteristics.. in the end life goes on.....
Last Night Part 3 - Now this is a dinner
I have heard of this place and the pork knuckle was the best and even better FREE!!! WE just pay for the drinks. Sometime is nice to have a good boss. Sometimes only
Why is it the best?
“The pork knuckle is prepared by boiling it in beer for about two hours and then roasting it before it is once again sprinkled with beer and served hot,’’ he said.
The knuckle is roasted to evaporate the excess beer in the meat, giving it the right texture and flavour.
The pork knuckle is then served hot with roasted red onions, German fries and beer sauce.
In the end it was an awesome dinenr, belly full, company not to shabby and what the heck I did not have to drive. hahaha
Till the next time
Last night Part 2 - The Dinner
Last night part 1
It had all the setting of being majestic held at the Malaysian Petroleum Club in KLCC (42nd floor) a lovely night and a snack later.
So we have another agency and the ceremony though a formality was a success.
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
To down in sorrow
“Drink today, and drown all sorrow; You shall perhaps not do it tomorrow; Best, while you have it, use your breath; There is no drinking after death”
“People who drink to drown their sorrow should be told that sorrow knows how to swim.”
Last night was kind of bad for me as I choose to drown and along the way got a few messages that were not pleasant and yet we move forward.
I guard myself too much from letting people in and for good reason and the only drawback is when you occasionally let your guard down and drown in sorrow it open up a can of truth.
I dun shy form it nor do it be afraid of having those moments, its what makes us human.
For instance I tried my best to show I dun have follower, or ghosts or people pissing around me marking their ground but if others choose to believe that's a fact how long should I go on trying to prove its not a fact. One day you just stop trying. Let it be la
Another instance - acceptance of death, for some its easy from some hard each have a different way or expressing but its not a crime. To label it as that is wrong is somethign unforgiveable
Hey the guy loved J.Taylor He knew he was dying and his time was up.
1 chapter closed
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Its Done
I been apart or visited many funral homes each wiht a different way of celebrating/mourning the passing. Each has its own characteristics.
He lived 30 years on this land, did his right and wrongs but to only judge him by his wrongs and not his right is brutal but thats the way society is. Grief is a funny thing each has a different style or expressing and controlling.
Alas he is laid to rest, a job well done and condolences to the family.
Usually when an event like this - death- happen to someone close or related you start to ponder, evaluate, question of how prepared you are for death. At an unplanned eulogy the speaker said why be afraid of death taking a passage from a book. I tracked it down. Lovely
If you loved the trees, the sunset, the birds, the falling leaf; if you were aware of men and women in tears, of poor people, and really felt love in your heart, would you be afraid of death? Would you? Don't be persuaded by me. Let us think about it together. You do not live with joy, you are not happy, you are not vitally sensitive to things; and is that why you ask what is going to happen when you die?
Life for you is sorrow, and so you are much more interested in death. You feel that perhaps there will be happiness after death. But that is a tremendous problem, and I do not know if you want to go into it. After all, fear is at the bottom of all this - fear of dying, fear of living, fear of suffering. If you cannot understand what it is that causes fear and be free of it, then it does not matter very much whether you are living or dead.""Fear of Death?" - The Book of Life (November 12)
So live life. I am, people will question, judge and advise you but only you will know what you want and if your contended. Me I dun fear death. I have lived for I need to life and for myself and done all I need to do so I do not fear it
:)
Monday, January 15, 2007
Organizing a Funeral
I was called in to help with the arrangement,I have done 7 funerals and 4 weddings - 3 of them 1st hand to know whats are the ares to be covered. 6 of us coordinating the funeral. The critical aspect of funerals in the following particular order
- Inform all and let the networks expand.
- Determine any overseas relatives they want to to be present, in this case yes. Confirm flight arrivals and extimates
- Book the priest and set the Funeral time
- Meanwhile get the Death Cert, get the burial/cremation permit and book the location.
Now you have the funeral time, location, priest, announcement and burial place all done
Next stage will be setting up the house.
- Get the tent, tanles cloth and all necessary
- Cover all the deity pics and rearrange the hall
- Get the bathign area ready.
- Get the list to purchase the thing and send someone to get them
- Get song books, trays banana leafs flowers etc etc etc
After that go with the flow.
Pretty much thats it
So tomorrow will be the funeral
V passed away
Words I could use to describe my state of mind
Stunned
Shocked
Angry
Sad
Frustrated
Frightened
A guy in the prime of his age, living, walking, taking of the family is now DEAD
Something is out of whack
Despite the morning sadness Happy Ponggal
Pongal is an important festivial of South India that falls in the mid-January every year. Pongal marks the auspicious beginning of Uttarayana, the Sun's movement northward & also the harvesting time. Traditional activities mark the four-days-long Pongal celebrations. Cows are bedecked with ornaments & taken out in processions. House entrance is decorated with beautiful Kolam designs. In Tamil Nadu, Pongal is also a sweet porridge recipe cooked from the new rice.
Pongal is the only festival of Hindu that follows a solar calendar and is celebrated on the fourteenth of January every year. Pongal has astronomical significance: it marks the beginning of Uttarayana, the Sun's movement northward for a six month period.
That is today here.
Life is not meant to end like this
Aged <30
Graduating next year from maritime academy
Non Smoker
Superb Character
Tall
Handsome
How can someone like this end up dying? Docs gave up hope ask to call family.
Reason Irreversible Pneumonia
Fucked up
Told him on Wed go see doc, he go see GP take med and take it easy collapse in the house yesterday. Ambulance rush him to UH, then on ventilator now doc say no hope
Fucked up, apathy dun deserve to die
Life just ended like that?
Dun take things for granted
Pneumonia is an illness of the lungs and respiratory system in which the alveoli (microscopic air-filled sacs of the lung responsible for absorbing oxygen from the atmosphere) become inflamed and flooded with fluid. Pneumonia can result from a variety of causes, including infection with bacteria, viruses, fungi, or parasites. Pneumonia may also occur from chemical or physical injury to the lungs, or indirectly due to another medical illness, such as lung cancer or alcohol abuse.
Typical symptoms associated with pneumonia include cough, chest pain, fever, and difficulty breathing. Diagnostic tools include x-rays and examination of the sputum. Treatment depends on the cause of pneumonia; bacterial pneumonia is treated with antibiotics.
A journey - if ever - Borocay to meet a fren
Visitors commonly refer to Boracay as a breath-taking, unbelievably magical Island. A paradise set in the unspoilt South China Seas.
At Boracay Beach Resort website, you'll discover an easy to use, information packed web site about Boracay Island, Boracay Philippines.
Confession
I see people around me who are not true and those who cling on to false beliefs, if I could be nasty hehehehe the possibilities was endless.
Stand up oh ye of little faith confess and let other feel the pain they deserve for ye shall be a empty man, and should ye hide such confession for the greater good then ye are far more greater of a man then one will ever be
Sunday, January 14, 2007
DGMEJFWGID ethos and others
The weekend
All in all the company for all this made it all worthwhile. God I am tired.
Later on had an after lunch session with Jnr Vadai and his chicken pox and a birthday at niht for an uncle who has a milestone.
I can smile
as in one tree hill - the weekend was not about regrest of the part nor the appearances of the future but living the present
tonight I tasted rain on my face, and danced
this weekend was great
as Jen said Friday "Lunatics was running the asylum"
till you truly appreciate vadai you will never know him
Saturday, January 13, 2007
3 guys and the night out
3 guys each with their own worries, troubles, burden showed up unloaded them and had one of the best, rocking, dancing nights in recent times
In the house was James Taylor, Bill Whithers, Eagles, Sting and every other singer that could come to mind all voice by one guy and what a guy. He could rock, he could sing, he could make a fat man dance
More to come........ right now I have a sping in my step and I am heading out to meet a fren.
This was a good night, with good frens and good music and not luggage
Friday, January 12, 2007
Time to give my mind, body & self a treat
Now its time to treat my self
ice cream
movie
a drink maybe
hmmmmmmmm
possibilities are endless despite an empty wallet
wakakakakak
Looking for a Pal
Anyone meeting/chatting witht KLfundude (andy) give me a buzz. Cant reach him on his HP.
Nice fella and I owe him big time
Thursday, January 11, 2007
Dreams of Death
As of late I been having wierd dreams of being stabbed and most scary is my dreams of death.
Dreams of Being Stabbed
To dream that you have been stabbed, signifies your struggle with power. You may be experiencing feelings of inadequacy and defensiveness. Alternatively, you may be feeling betrayed as the popular phrase goes, "being stabbed in the back".
To dream that you stab someone, indicates your fear of betrayal and your untrusting nature. You may be too much on the defensive.
Dreams of Death
Death or dying in a dream seldom refers to an actual death. Death refers to changes in one's life, or attitudes toward certain persons, or fears of dying. Here are some possibilities of what death, dying or a dead person may represent in a dream. Death is a motif and may be the central motif of the dream.
Jnr Vadai gets Chicken Pox
Its lucky he gets it early, I got mine at age of 20
Chickenpox, also spelled chicken pox, is the common name for Varicella simplex, classically one of the childhood infectious diseases caught and survived by most children.
Chickenpox is caused by the varicella-zoster virus (VZV), also known as human herpes virus 3 (HHV-3), one of the eight herpes viruses known to affect humans. It starts with conjunctival and catarrhal symptoms, moderate fever and then characteristic spots appearing in two or three waves, mainly on the body and head rather than the hands and becoming itchy raw pox (pocks), small open sores which heal mostly without scarring.
Chickenpox has a two-week incubation period and is highly contagious by air transmission two days before symptoms appear. Following primary infection there is usually lifelong protective immunity from further episodes of chickenpox. Recurrent chickenpox is fairly rare but more likely in people with compromised immune systems.
11am on a Thursday morning
Scenario
We quote version 1 for 9 panels on a price an agreement
Then we quote version 2 for the same panel with further 10% on the price agreement
Then email comes in Dec 21 please quote 2 pcs of one item of the panel. By business laws you use the last price you quoted them.
Now you not happy with them you go a head and quote a list price
WTF
Dun blame me when you do not specify which price to put in. You want something done spell it out in black and white
Unique Circumstances
When you have a situation where by there is a compromise between 2 people who cant see eye to eye or are in a compromise for an equal interest then you have 'meet cute'
Interesting how life presents it self with many 'meet cute' situations and yet people expect more then we present on paper.
Same as work or any other environment that we engulf ourself daily. Its there
Open you eyes... dun expect more then there is or belief in more then you shout ... in the end... life is like a box of chocolates
Turning a new leaf -- naaaaaaahhh
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
All night
Wish we could pull the plug on this
Despair & Dejected
Secondly, my so called getaway, escape, breakaway from work to a far far away land for Thursday , never materialized, imagine ticket in hand, arrangements all made at both ends and the things that screws it up is the late delivery of the printers and a tender closing.
Just once, just once when I though I could have they moment of breakaway it comes crashing all around, will try again
Damm its not good and still working around the clock.
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
What Is Gratitude?
# Gratitude is a positive emotion which involves a feeling of emotional indebtedness towards another person, often accompanied by a desire to thank them or reciprocate a favour.
lets us not forget things other do for us
Gratitude is when memory is stored in the heart and not in the mind. --Sam N. Hampton
Billy Joel - Piano Man - Friggin awesome lalalalaala
It's nine o'clock on a Saturday The regular crowd shuffles in There's an old man sitting next to me Makin' love to his tonic and gin He says, "Son, can you play me a memory? I'm not really sure how it goes But it's sad and it's sweet and I knew it complete When I wore a younger man's clothes" La la la, de de da La la, de de da da da Chorus: Sing us a song, you're the piano man Sing us a song tonight Well, we're all in the mood for a melody And you've got us feelin' alright Now John at the bar is a friend of mine He gets me my drinks for free And he's quick with a joke or to light up your smoke But there's someplace that he'd rather be He says, "Bill, I believe this is killing me." As the smile ran away from his face "Well I'm sure that I could be a movie star If I could get out of this place" Oh, la la la, de de da La la, de de da da da Now Paul is a real estate novelist Who never had time for a wife And he's talkin' with Davy who's still in the navy And probably will be for life And the waitress is practicing politics As the businessmen slowly get stoned Yes, they're sharing a drink they call loneliness But it's better than drinkin' alone Chorus It's a pretty good crowd for a Saturday And the manager gives me a smile 'Cause he knows that it's me they've been comin' to see To forget about life for a while And the piano, it sounds like a carnival And the microphone smells like a beer And they sit at the bar and put bread in my jar And say, "Man, what are you doin' here?" Oh, la la la, de de da La la, de de da da da Chorus |
They say this song is actually based on real events that happened while billy joel was playing at small piano bars or bars in general while he was getting screwed over with a contract. THe people in the song real and everythign about them real and the waitress who is practicing politics is his first ex wife.
Piano bars are notorious places for various people who have given up on life or who are at dead ends. The place of the "confirmed bachelor" as the cliche goes.
In any event, the song is great because it just illustrates so well how a simple musician can inspire so many people and great sing along tune
Mamak
Upon hearing few was going and the rain indirectly change my mind and a phone call from makcik did help in away. Lacy had her FIL dinner, Maria still without transport.
Kalai and Beem picked Cleo up and Warren offered to pick me, Marie not knowing where it is with grandma and Azie met at Bisik as we all climb into Warren's Nissan Sentra instead of Nissan Sunny.
All in all 7 of us in a good enjoyment. It was ncie. Headed home while some went to jam else where. Nice to meet makcik
Monday, January 08, 2007
Barnyard
I love animation and wait till u see the voices behind these characters
Kevin James | .... | Otis the Cow (voice) | |
Courteney Cox | .... | Daisy the Cow (voice) | |
Sam Elliott | .... | Ben the Cow (voice) | |
Danny Glover | .... | Miles the Mule (voice) | |
Wanda Sykes | .... | Bessy the Cow (voice) | |
Andie MacDowell | .... | Etta the Hen (voice) | |
David Koechner | .... | Dag the Coyote (voice) |
M gonna enjoy tonight